ME

In Turmoil

2006-10-12T01:14:00.000+08:00

So many things have been going round and round and round my head for the past 24hrs or so i feeel so tired and uncertain of everything...and its so unbelievable tt only barely a day has passed...and i just cant wait for this whole sem to be over...so i can at least get one burden off my head, the stupid work...

Mayb i coud be wrong, but i am quite certain tt God used you to bring me back to Him, i'm thankful for tt, but why must it be u?...juz swayed all my beliefs and values tt i neva thought i would find myself trying to compromise in my head, i think tts bad enuff, and i really wun be suprised if one day i realli make the decision to compromise...but whether its wrong or right or God's will is another thing. 1 and a half weeks back i was so sure i made the right choice, but for the past few days questions have been swarming my mind...full of wad ifs...wad if i compromised...would tt bring one more person to Christ?...in the first place i dun even know if my hunch tt God is giving me this chance to bring you to Christ is correct in anyway AT ALL...and wad if tts juz all an illusion. its driving me crazy sooon. rarrr...

Finally today i felt i finally had a break frm sch work...haven touched my schwork all day...and i went to the wierdest places...like Labrador Park?...music lesson to Ariel and Andre again...Andre is juz driving me mad and more mad...haha...and thru the whole day nth was off my mind...arghhh...plus tt email i received yest...i juz haf so so may things running thru my mind...run run run...

hall...

2006-09-23T16:24:00.000+08:00

Everytime i type here i feeel like sayin its been a long time...but it realli has been and i feel tt i've entered NUS like for forever alr...even though its juz been 2 mths or so...I realised sch is really a stumbling blk for a lot of ppl...in terms of beliefs, values...i believe everyone has their own sets of beliefs and values they thought they would never compromise...but its realli hard when ur forced to make a decision...and there are realli all kinds of ppl frm all walks of life here...

I'm really thankful for tt someone who told me this last yr...even though he may not remember he said those words...he said "Juan, no matter wad u do...dun compromise on ur beliefs and ur faith or values because u know tt God wun shortchange u..." It has really still been in my heart and in my brain all these while...and i guess tts how i managed to keep myself going.

Yest was TGIO...my first rockers performance haha...really had fun with all u guys frm THE POX(copyrighted by Laremy) ! haha...had fun finding our GOTH costumes...and trying all the funny funny stuff...its juz the adrenaline rush tt keeps u going when ur on stage...

anyway its MID SEM BREAK!!! and i'm rushing home now...haha more updates coming sooon =)...

School...has started...

2006-08-15T08:47:00.000+08:00

yay finally another update after super long...haha been busy arnd NUS b4 i even started sch...but yea yest was thef first day of sch...wierd feeling i got really. like the first time u haf no class, no uniform, and the lecturers dun even care if ur there or not. but the whole place was jammed packed lar...if it goes on like this all the way its crazy!

Hall life is starting to settle after formal dinner yest and the Star to Burst performance...now we're like waking at 6am everyday to train for inter blk sports...but its damn fun lar...get to play sports everyday...and the wierdest thing i ever did was to wake up at 6am to play handball b4 my first day of sch.

ok gotta go shower and lec alr...update more later.r.r.

sth. meaningful...for some unknown ppl.

2006-07-17T12:11:00.001+08:00

Got this frm an email...but i think as much as many ppl gets all these mails those tt neeed to read this DUN read this...

The five simple rules to be happy :)

1. Free your heart from hatred.

2. Free your mind from worries.

3. Live simply.

4. Give more.

5. Expect less.

No one can go back and make a brand new start. Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.

God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way. Disappointments are like road bumps, they slow you down a bit but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards. Don't stay on the bumps too long. Move on!

When you feel down because you didn't get what you want, just sit tight and be happy, because God has thought of something better to give you. When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it means. There's a purpose to life's events, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.

You can't make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth. It's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the one you love because of pride. We spend too much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give.

Never abandon an old friend. You will never find one who can take his place. Friendship is like wine, it gets better as it grows older.

i've beeen lagging with a lotta photos huh...better go put them up sooon...

sth. meaningful...for some unknown ppl.

2006-07-17T12:11:00.000+08:00

Got this frm an email...but i think as much as many ppl gets all these mails those tt neeed to read this DUN read this...

The five simple rules to be happy :)

1. Free your heart from hatred.

2. Free your mind from worries.

3. Live simply.

4. Give more.

5. Expect less.

No one can go back and make a brand new start. Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.

Never abandon an old friend. You will never find one who can take his place. Friendship is like wine, it gets better as it grows older.

i've beeen lagging with a lotta photos huh...better go put them up sooon...

Long long time.e..

2006-07-08T02:00:00.000+08:00

seriously long time since i blogged...i think its become my usual start line alr...

juz went for Arts Camp last week...ok i realli dun regret going now...coz i met so many nice ppl frm Tekila! and frm Tigara!...haha...its not the camp itself...but i guess the ppl tt made it all happening for me...and i realli enjoyed myself...minus tt freaky fright night...ok so tt was an experience...

been pretty busy...catching up with chuch frens, AC frens, Sc frens, now Og frens...feeel quite bad tt i haven really been home for so many days...and 30th July's drawing closer and closer...i feel myself slipping away frm the comfort of my room hahaha.

driving test's also in 2 weeks...i'm kinda freaking out...so many wad ifs...but i guess it doesn't really matter how i think right.

the past 6 months...i've juz been thru issues and more issues...sometimes i juz feel so tired i wanna give it all up, but then u think of the consequences and u juz realise u can't...i can't. other ppl might be able to but i juz can't let it go this way. hope things are getting better. at least they look like they are. :)

time to sleeep...i'll upload ALL the photos another day...

rise above the storm

2006-06-19T02:09:00.000+08:00

been a while since i typed here...but so so much has happened, i also dunno wad to type and where to start frm...

well church camp was like a time for me to revive my frenship with the YE ppl...i feeel like i haven hung out with them for super long...mayb coz of my main service sessions...the whole camp i juz had a lot of mixedfeeelings...gd and bad i guess. it was an experience staying in the Male VIP changing room...with a whole bunch of girls ironically. the male toilets stink...like SERIOUSLY BAD haha. games were super fun...mayb coz this time so many youths turned up...but somehow i had to get my toe nail kicked off by some uncle during soccer right on the first day...tt din stop me frm playing my floorball! haha.

its been like a yr and a half since i kinda led a "group" in discussion and all, and i'm really quite relieved MOST of my group(note MOST) were quite proactive and enthu haha. hope u guys took sth home frm the group sessions and the messages. The speaker was able to connect with the younger ppl as well as the older ppl i felt...how we should be walking on the right track most of the time n not sit or stand.

somehow i feel, isn't it everyone's goal in life to be happy? i mean who doesnt want to. right?... but sometimes the fine line between relationships and frenships creates probs...mayb ppl juz assume too much. i realli dun like the word assumption. i prefer sth more definitive. one thing i learnt is to rise above the storm...its then that u can see the big picture...sometimes letting go may not b a bad thing, prevents u frm suffering, n more probs frm surfacing. Ultimately, be secure in Him...i mean wadeva's happening all arnd u...its all planned alr. anyway right? so no matter wad u do most probably u'll find urself back on the same path, so why put urself thru tt turmoil. i mean sometimes we all can't help it, after all we're only human, and one of our weakest links are our emotions and this is not really a time to decide betweeen head over heart or vice versa...so...i'll juz see where He takes me...

Funn!

2006-05-31T23:26:00.000+08:00

So i gave up milo tourn in KL to help out in the pathlight autistic childrens camp. and i really dun regret. :) the kids there reali brighten ur day. first day went to ECP to cycle skate scoot and fly kite with them...and yest we went to sentosa for LUGE rides where i almost dieded then frisbee and volleyball...and today the highlight...KAYAKING! super shiok..haha but Iqbal juz went mad on my kayak and said he doesnt wanna go back to shore until we capsize...

theres juz sth diff. abt looking after autistic kids tt makes it much more fun...like Daniel who talks non stop to himself abt blue whales and sharks and wadnot...and Qin Yuan who goes after this girl called Sherry and talks abt sesame street and batman all day long...i'm starting to miss camp alr

when u haf no time to think. i think its the best time...to be able to be kept busy and happy.

1 Thessalonians 5:28

2006-05-19T21:26:00.000+08:00

"May God himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through and through. May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. The one who calls you is faithful and he will do it."

i seriously can't hear Him any clearer. Even as i had doubts and all, i believe tt juz by putting my faith to it, i can't go wrong. and things din :) or at least not yet haha.

juz came back frm Kallang...and it relali hit me how much i not only miss the game, but the ppl. it suddenly dawned on me tt by quitting the intermediate squad tt time, i left behind a lot. esp. the ppl i kinda "grew up" with...since sec1. but i seriously can't see myself training up for the national squad again. Squash is no longer my top priority...but it sure brought me many memories.

finally at peace :)

Future Glory - Romans 8:18

2006-05-17T01:23:00.000+08:00

I consider that our present sufferings arenot worth comparing wiht the glory that will be revealed in us. The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed. For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own hoice, but by the will of the one who subkected it, in hope that the creation itself with be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the glorious freedom of the children of God.

We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth rght up to the present time. Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hop at all. Who hopes for what he already has?

Serving God can be painful u know...its not true tt it must always be happy i feel. but i guess the pain is when ur trying to serve. I dun side anyone, but why izzit this whole thing's juz going in circles. and i'm like running round in circles as though i haf no where else to head. ok mayb its true i haf no where else to head, but somehow i gotta find the start and the end in this circle. but how?

Was talking to Sharon for quite sometime. met her at AYLN...i think the ppl i met there realli enlightened my heart. looking at them i can juz see God in their hearts. and i realli dun regret going. Its only thru trials tt we'll emerge stronger?...i hope.

tmr's my last match of season, i realli hope i perform...i think it'll kinda decide whether i'll continue competitive.

One day's passed. i really pray that I'll get a v. clear answer.

expectation

2006-05-15T02:04:00.000+08:00

confused mess. sometimes u wonder wads this world ur living in in the first place. why are u here.

somehow everyone's linked in one way or another in this world. sometimes i like it. but i dun realli do for now.rarr.

PICS!

2006-05-08T02:31:00.000+08:00

Hong Kong 1!

Hong Kong 2!

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2006-05-05T00:06:00.000+08:00

Isn't serving God supposed to be a happy experience? Isn't it?

HK!

2006-05-02T19:58:00.000+08:00

Boon's B-day Pics! (dun say i'm taking so long)...

Hey i'm BACK!. haha...i think i've been away so long i forgot how my room or house looked like. When i got home yest i juz felt WIERD...

anyway i think the break realli refreshed me and i feel much happier now. though it has been quite an eventful trip. i think Fong experienced sth she would neva haf experience without us there. hahaha. like how we all got to sit in a police van. and finished the OC. anyway i'm really thankful tt Fong was there...i think the rest are too. haha. and Thank God CHRIS is FINALLY BACK. stupid girl. make all of us so worried. haha. anyway gd thing alls well and fine. :)

More news...i got into NUS arts! haha. i'm seriously quite happy tt i din get tt one letter and its not frm NUS but NTU i'll drop dead. but i realli Thank God for it...like He always made this choosing and transition period so easy. coz i always got my first choice. except for ACJC i had to appeal. still a lil. apprehensive abt going to uni. but i guess everyone has to go thru it.

anyway. i hope things stay this way. everyone happy i'm happy. i dunno man. haha.

replying tags...

derrick: ur forever full of trash! haha. i'm not yet 19.

Lien: yes yes..aren't i doing tt now.

Joel: yea i know. thx to pang sai

Abz: yup! thx for giving us ur fren's no. we got the place! haha. all happy ppl when we found it. meet up soon

Shu: yea fun fun! haha. coz with my frens wad.

Jude: Heya! enjoy urself in Aussie k...come back sooon!

back...

2006-04-18T23:15:00.000+08:00

Cambodia pics!!!...

finally back...Cambodia juz made me see a whole new perspective of stuffs. Technology is neva an excuse why we can't worship and praise or glorify God tt well. Worship was conducted without music, juz voices and enthusiasm and the heart to worship. its realli tt simple. even their easter performances, u can feel the happiness within them even without sound, juz their voices and actions and all.

On a lighter note...the kids are SUPER DUPER CUUUTE. i miss Takeo alr...

5 days away seemed to give me more peace in my heart when i came back. but why does everythin keep going wrong again and again. u know i can't wait to go HK so i can be away frm all these again. either tt or i wish i were back in sch. carefree and all. sigh.

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2006-04-10T13:27:00.000+08:00

its quite amazing how things can take a turn within a span of a week...i wouldn't be suprised if anythin else went awry tmr or sth again man...i guess tts life. but i'm happy tt most of it is solved now...and i realli dun regret on my insistence in knowing wads going on most of the time coz i think its only then i will get peace. wad m i talking haha.

anyway i PASsed my Grade8 finally!!! and my aural had like double wad i got the other time. haha somehow. praise God!

but...i sprained my ankle on wed. its realli quite horrible. its only my first match ever since i stopped playing competitive. luckily its season break now. but i hope i'm able to get back to training so i can even play for rest of season. and also traveling arnd in Cambodia...u know calling back frm Cambodia or answering a call there is $5/MIN...its CRAZY haha.

realli sian diao now. sinseh says u walk to where sit to where until FRI. if u wanna be able to PLAY squash. hahaha.and my mum's nagging hasn't stopped. looks like i gotta find some entertainment today.

forgot...

2006-04-01T11:19:00.000+08:00

abt replying my tags. haha

shu: if i had a choice i wouldn't be thinking lar really. HAHA.

Rach: yea yea i'm 18. 1 yr diff. only wad...ONLY. haha i DIN STEAL THE TEMPLATE. i m the one tt even put it there for u guys wad!!!.

XH: i'm dying. haha.

i miss sch.

2006-04-01T11:14:00.000+08:00

i really do. it beats having less stuff to occupy ur mind u juz keep thinking. thinking of crap tt doesnt even concern u. i mean it might concern me but i dun see why the problem even arised.

i'm so tired now. haven stopped doing anythin since yest. spent the aft. trying to write the piano score for how great is our God. haha. i din realise it was TT challenging ok. i mean playing the tune's no prob. but writing the rhythm plus harmony plus bass is another thing man. and stupid Onn Shaun had to interupt me at 4pm to play squash. and here i m aching now. played till almost 9pm. as much as i dun wanna go training today. i still wanna go. coz it makes me think less. really much less.

i think i'm really in a dream

2006-03-30T13:17:00.000+08:00

mayb the SMU profs were right. ur living in a dream. and in this dream u can still dream. it sucks in a way...really. sometimes dun u wonder why ur even here. like ur presence even matters.

someone told me sth i can't forget yest. abt how we always pray and ask Him to show us His will for our life. but suddenly u realise...its not His will for OUR life. but more of His will and how OUR life fits arnd it. to fill that empty space in that big jigsaw he has in mind..to create a complete picture.

i really wish someone would juz be able to listen to me and act. understand wads going on rather than the whole thing going in a whole cycle again. wads Dav doing in Taiwan at this time man. At least i still haf XH. :)

dreams...

2006-03-29T01:31:00.000+08:00

i'm DEAD. dun understand why i dun need to go to sch but i'm like more tired than ever everyday. went for SMU interview today...haha it realli made me think a lot. even till this pt in time. Two Ang Moh Profs interviewed me. and they asked...How do u tell the diff. between dreams and reality. ok so i answered. obviously theres a diff. somehow right. and they asked me how do u know tt ur not in a dream urself now. and mayb its possible to dream in a dream. act the truth is. sometimes dun u think this way too? like do u expect to wake up all of a sudden and realise ur whole life's been a BIg dream. mayb it is kinda. when u finally go to heaven. tts when ur dream's over and ur alarm clock rings. and it led to the question of how did u even know theres such a thing called dream. so u hear frm ppl, theres scientific evidence and so on. so how did the ppl b4 u know abt it? frm the ppl b4 them right? so it led us to Adam. haha and they asked. So how did Adam learn there was such a thing called dreams. now din God impart tt knowledge in him? juz like him being able to tell right frm wrong. so it leads me to this stumbling question. Do u think God dreams. HAHA. i literally wanted to laugh when they asked me tt. I mean obviously God's God for a reason right. but i'm really glad i din pon the interview. act it kinda gave me a new view at SMU. perhaps SMU ain't TT bad afterall.

so i went to meet Lizzie and XH and XH's FREN alwyn at lot1. went to eat suki sushi BUFFET! wah i was freaking full. but damn tired somehow. so i went home to sleep and overslept making myself late for training at safra! and i had no dinner...grr. i dunno but i juz get a bad vibe when i go there somehow. i dunno why. its juz this natural instinct i haf tt tells me to be wary. wierd. perhaps i'll know soon. but i seriously can't feel my forearm anymore. its hurting like crap somehow right at the joint.

i think today's like the first day in quite some time tt i'm feeling clear of my troubles and i can finally feel peace. which is gd in a way. so God answered my prayers.:)

long day tmr...gonna get my piano ballet pay FINALLY! haha. ok zzz.

squash...n squash...n MORE squash...

2006-03-26T00:34:00.000+08:00

i'm freaking tired out...physically. played frm 3-7 juz now...at safra. first time i went down to train under them. i think sometimes my mind's a mess as well. like one moment i juz tell myself how much i can't stand training and squash is juz gonna be my leisure sport. but i realli miss those times. even as i was damn tired juz now. i realli dun mind killing my body physically for another match. theres juz this adrenaline rush tt nth but being able to execute tt shot u wanted to do. haha. yea i'm a happy person tonight man...

lots happened yest. stuff cleared...but stuff started. and some stuff. its juz stuck in the middle. neither cleared but alr. started. i realli hope tt my decision was right. i mean if i were to consider myself only, i'll choose the stubborn option, but i din...coz isn't this whole world connected...i can be stubborn all i wan but it wun change anythin and instead juz burden myself and others. tts y i chose not to...ok?

without Him...realli nth is possible...but yet many a times why do i feeel i can't realli sense a certain hunch of wad He's trying to tell me to do. Everytime i decide on sth. i'm juz worried wad if my decision was based on my human want and not His. but i guess its a risk all of us has to undergo.

are girls realli scary creatures? i neva thought so. but evidence juz proves it wrong. like seriously. when u first think of wad might happen u tell urself so positively i will do tt and i wun do tt. but when ur realli in that situation 99.99% of the time. it juz happens and u dun even get to think WHAt u need to do. coz u alr. acted without knowing. and usually in the most absurd way u can't imagine urself. confused.

bored. confused.

2006-03-24T00:07:00.000+08:00

while i haf a few more months to go...i haf absolutely NO idea how i should spend it. i mean its gd to be able to slack at home everyday. but its juz simply boring and monotonous after a while. but that stupid tuition job wouldn't allow me to take up a 9-5 job. and neither do i wan a desk job.

how do u define GOOD FRIEND. Is it right to expect frm a friendship? i mean yea obviously everyone has their own expectations, but is it right to expect and when u dun get wad u expect get upset. Seriously i feeel this kinda thing can't be measured. How can u tell wad exactly u want. shouldn't u let ur friendship juz flow naturally and let it improve. It takes time to blossom no matter wadd isn't it? You can't force a flower to bloom overnight. As much as u can't expect wad u want to see frm a friendship appear overnight either. right right?.

As i said even as i'm super bored. its ironic how come the things on my mind juz increase. I'm realli saturated and tired mentally alr. anyway enuff of tt. First time i went to test drive cars with Gerald and John juz now. rather shiok lar...as much as i dun realli like the mini cooper it has a rather cute interior. haha. feel as though ur in cartooon world.

photos!

2006-03-20T15:35:00.000+08:00

sentosa pics!

Misc pics!

tired!!!

2006-03-20T15:19:00.000+08:00

its 3.16pm and i'm still eating my lunch. can't believe it. i actually woke up at 1.30pm. haha. dunno how i survived church yest. after 3 hrs of sleeep the night b4.

music retreat was quite fun...minus the teasing and bullying frm SOME ppl. and it actually made me change some perspectives and impressions i had of ppl...and i wondered a few times...if not for the retreat would i even get to know this person etc etc. it was a rather refreshing experience i guess. and we got to trash some stuff out. haha.

haven blogged for a super long time...anyway i finished learning driving! but the test is so super far away in July...and i still haven gotten down to applying to NTU and SMU...dun understand why they require irritating essayss...

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2006-02-27T00:31:00.000+08:00

Has a friend ever made u cry? or should i say would a friend even do tt. and more absurdly. you dun even know why. u dunno why ur crying. why the whole friendship even became an issue. or should i say it was considered NOT a friendship at least at some pt. in time.

my life kinda sucks now.

2006-02-20T10:59:00.000+08:00

talking so much abt a boring life...suddenly i'm brought back to the reality of squash in my life. i'm finding it all way too much to absorb man. i seriously dun like the word. N-S-L. i mean i was told i'm a reserve! but he din say Div 1?! i feeel so cheated.mayb i juz forgot tt my grade can't play Div 2 but doesn't it make sense that i'm not even NEAR div 1 standard now. u must be kidding me. i can even count tmr's training as number 4th training ever since my nationals LAST YR. if anyone can go back to D grade in 3 weeks with normal standard "sch training" i m amazed. argh...i juz feeel like i'm being swallowed by quiksand......................grr.

sorry for all tt ranting. but i guess for this period at least MUSIC is having higher priority over SQUASH. but again if i juz quit on everyone in squash. i'll feeel as though i let someone down. which is also true in a way. either way its juz WRONG lar. sigh sigh. someone pull me outta thisss...

Sat was an eye opener for me. first time i'm "involveD" in a church wedding. but the whole feeling was so diff. frm Ms. Chia's wedding. haha. the stupid thorn in my finger's still not to be found.

watching show.w.....

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2006-02-13T12:49:00.000+08:00

practically dying... as much as i'm surviving my piano ballet classes. i think i'm gonna fail my piano exam...AGAIN. argh. i juz simply can't bring myself to prac those pieces any longer. since J1 leh! u know how long tt is...like 2 yrs...

got a new cell! haha i'm not a FLOATING LOST SOUL after all!!! yay. and my cell leader is no other than Shir again. hah. but post sec cell looked kinda wierd coz this yr everyone's put into age groups.

heard tt results are out on Fri...somehow i'm not scared as wad i would tot i would feel. but still. i realli dunno where i'm headed...

crap. i'm running late again...

sian sian

2006-02-09T01:28:00.000+08:00

beeen passing the last few weeks after quitting my job quite lax...haha. i think earning 600 or so less in a month can't compare to the free time u get lar. anyway i survived my piano job again haha. i think its becoming sth i dread dying for every week.

went back SC for squash on Mon...a lot has changed. even the ppl arnd there changed. feels wierd. but it still feels the most like home...but i can't play for nuts lar! and i seriously seriously dun WAN to play for NSL...i'm juz gonna make my reputation DIE for GD. haha. nows like another pt in squash tt. i gotta make a decision if i'm gonna continue competitively or just play for fun. but why does it seem like i dun haf the right of choice. i mean theres always a time the younger ppl will take over the older...and i'm alr. past my peak so wads the pt of pulling me back...unless u wan Safra to lose terribly. like how combine schs lost like mad last yr...haha

kinda dead tired. woke up at 7am the last 2 days. tmr too. for the sake of driving. haha. i think i almost fell asleep driving today coz the stupid morning was so bright and glaring. having an irritating instructor din work much either. i mean ppl learning wad! my brake not as smooth as urs then dun swear lar!...

and its the FIRST time in my life i gave tuition. hahaha. i seriously wonder wad Rachel thinks of her "tutor". feels wierd to teach instead of being taught. and i think its seriously a damn stressful job. more stress for the tutor than student man!

da: wad UNLIKE me. i dun DANCE BALLET can alr. hahaha

XH: meeting u tmr lar! dun complain! haha...=)

Shu: ur big head. i wan RINGER shirt. not WEDDING RING. haha got huge diff. ok!!!

zonked out.

2006-01-30T02:18:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired!!! hahaha. yea i was cooped up for 7 days 7 nights. can't believe it myself. but i did a lot of stuff and cleaning up too. so friday i finally saw sunlight again! haha. met Chris and Justin for lunch...yummy fried dumpling noodles! too bad the lor mee was closed.

then went for supper with the OLD ppl. went to mad jacks to wait for SARAH TEO as usual. then headed to Mambo pool...but somehow Sarah Moses and i ended up sitting on the floor outside mambo talking. I dun regret not playing pool lar realli. basic topic: GOD haha. i dunno somehow it juz came to that and while Gerald n John juz waited for us inside to play pool. we were still talking at 1 am when they finished playing. led me to think that sometimes wad u think u haf let go of...deep down in ur heart u might haf not...

went shop shop with my mummy on sat...i think time on CNY eve juz takes forever to pass. after getting home juz b4 the shops close, i still had time to do jigsaw and SLEEP. haha. reunion dinner's food was juz rather horrible. wad with Sharks fin that contained crab meat and sea cucumber, unfresh prawns that mashed easily b/w ur fingers...its ok. company's great...like RACH haha...after dinner we went to mambo again. but this time for real pool. haha...there was this irritating roach scurrying arnd the place. disgusting man!

today passed as though it was a dream haha. i felt like a total zombie lar. got dragged out of bed at 9...but Am Po's Lor Meee is fantastic lar...haha. but i got realli bored at my other Ah Ma's house...Sleepy in the warm weather...plus after Chong Hui and Fu nen left i was left with the tv and a box of ba gua and some corn flake tidbits. coz my parents had their usual mah jong games...-_-

suddenly after recovering frm pox. i dun feel like returning to "reality"...like theres so much to do...esp. practising for those ballet pieces. i feeel like i'm gonna die again. like the last 10 days or so were the most carefree. i could wake any time i liked. do wadeva i liked. though all within the confinement of my house.

stella: i'm well alr! haha. i might be going aussie u know! is ur lodging still available! =)

Shu: i still like the blue and rings...thinking thinking. haha. hello its coz u are the only one that put a smiley. i might join u guys for baking! hee.

boo the stupid pox.

2006-01-22T02:41:00.000+08:00

itchy and PAINFUL...my gdness pls. everyone who hasn't got it. i suggest the jab rather than get the stupid pox.but it was rather timely. after being tired out frm work for 4 days. i was waiting to get slaughtered on sat for my piano ballet thingy. coz i haven practised at ALL...and after a horrible first night yest. i realli simply dun wanna sleep tonight. din get to sleep till 4am++ and i spent 10 hrs today watching Autumn In My Heart....courtesy of Nick who dumped me with the VCD and ran off to Thailand for his "holiday army" every scene theres ppl crying. must give credit to all the actors man...

anyway i DROVE ON THE ROAD! so funnn...hahaha. my 2nd lesson i din expect anythin more than drivin in the circuit. so excited when he asked me for my PDL to go on road!. and i conclude taxi drivers are IRRITATING. and BUSES too...now think of it its easier to travel ON them rather than WITH them...but the stupid pumps i wore gave me serious blisters. so much for wearing a covered toe shoe....

thurs went to church to help Mel with the notice board!!! i love our creation...hee right MEL...its so colourful and vibrant now...and yea i juz quit my job on thurs...the fashion admin...coz i realli haf no time for my piano...so anyone who wans it...CALL ME NOW i need a replacement URGENTLY.

fri was supposed to be my last day. but somehow i got the stupid pox on thurs night. how ironic. wed night i juz went for the vaccine. and the doc was so eager to jab me b4 i could even decide if i wanted it. i juz dun wanna be defaced coz of this! and gotta cancel all my stuffs the nx 5 days. thank God that i'll be well and up by CNY at least according to that doc.

i'm bored...its like 3am and i dun wanna SLEEEP.

a day at work...

2006-01-15T02:21:00.000+08:00

finally SAT came and passed. and i'm still POX FREE! hahaha. anyway yest was reallli fun...driving. hee i felt like i was playing bumper cars juz tt u can't make a mistake. its damn thrilling seriously. and suddenly u realise. if u make one wrong move ur in deeep shit. haha. and somehow i dunno y my instructor taught me in CHINESE.

i practically spent the whole of yest night and this morn practising for my ballet pieces...so basically i've been playing the piano since fri night till this evening at 6pm...i still love the free flow music. haha i play wadeva rubbish also can. then went for music prac...hhaha. first time joining the real main music team...and i feeel reali young. hahaha. now now..i din say anyone was OLD ok. a rather amusing prac. Moses and John Chee will know wad i mean. hahaha. *amusing tune rings*

after tt went to Mad Jack's with Jun Hao Moses and John to look for Sarah haha...OILY wateR!!! headed to Breko after for somemore BRIDGE...and nice food. i think i ate a lot of supper tonight man. hahah. yea and i conclude tt its rather fun hanging out with the OL*DI*S. its a taboo word. hahaha and Shu Ling needs to go for laughing lessons!!! anyway its like near 3 alr...and surprisingly my mum was ASLEEP when i reached home...ok zzz.

dead.

2006-01-13T00:41:00.000+08:00

last week i had no job. suddenly i haf THREE jobs. i'm being swallowed man. hahaha. i mean God's realli gd. i got my jobs and i still haf my afternoons and night free for piano pracs...yea...

one week passed rather fast. frm Monday onwards..there goes my sleeep. sigh sigh. tmr's fun fun...ok fine i gotta go YMCA to sign my contract then go church with Mel to put up notice board..then...DRIVING!!! hahaha finally. yea i passed my basic theory. so exciting.

i'm rather excited abt nx week. but more worried abt SAT. the ballet pieces hoW HOW HOW!. like 60 pieces leh...one hour 20 pieces for the class. rarr.

i'm gnona sleep. early early tmr.r....!.

job job job...

2006-01-08T02:05:00.000+08:00

past week has been the most boring ever in my life man. and i spent my first day slacking at HV with pangsai and Sarah. haha.

the rest of the week was juz rather sianned. but anyway gd news! i passed my trial at YMCA and i got a job. haha playing piano for ballet classes...i'm quite happy with the whole working hours and pay thingy. haha. but realli i think its all thanks to God. i'm realli thankful for those frens who were there to encourage me when i was rather down sometime back. and u guys were right. God has a better plan.

i felt rather young at music network meeting today. hahaha. i'm SERIOUS! i'm like the YOUNGEST there alr. and it juz dawned on me tt wad we are trying to do in YE its happening in the adult ministry as well. and its so much tougher coz as youths we all haf the same "background" like we're all studying in sec schs or jcs or polys. while for adults they realli come frm diff. walks of life. and they realli haf diff. views.

as much as i'm bored. i realised tt i haf a lot of things to do...but i simply can't bring myself to perform those tasks. esp. cleaning up my 12 yrs worth of sch books and worksheets and wadnot.haha

anyway. to those having the time of their lives having orientation in Jc now...appreciate it. i'm missing it loads!. Chris XH and i went back to AC on thurs...talked to gp mdm. rather amusing talk. abt how young kids are spendthrifts and how much money u can save without having a kid. haha.

i should find some constructive time wasting stuff to do instead...

another yr gone...

2006-01-02T01:06:00.000+08:00

last week's super hectic man...met up with Singying on wed...and we went for Thai express lunch...it was super niceee....haha. b4 i chiong to BBDC to meet Joel and Fiona for 2 super boring and lame theory lessons and an evaluation which all three of us failed. haha. so we signed up for PRAC b4 evaluation on fridayy...

thurs was juz a lil. sian till afternoon, met Eve Siying and CZL to buy bbq stuff. so mayb less ppl made it this time but its still gd enuff. but Eve and Siying juz CAN'T stop suaning me for sth which is non existent.

anyway i passed my evaluation with 99% on fri! hahaha. then i woke sarah up to go roam with me and i couldn't get Gerald to wake up. so we juz went arnd Bugis and finally ya i bought a pair of levis. thx to my Dad's gernerous contribution of a christmas present worth a 100 bucks for levis jeans. obviously i paid the difference. and we went for some interview at tanjong pagar b4 supposedly heading off to Rox's house. haha but funny thing is on 700, we passed Orchard and we thought ZARA SALE! then we juz hopped off and went to Zara. eh but not bad lor i bought 3 tops for 7.90 EACh...but by the time got to Rox's house we were super duper late and pizza was gone. YE's like turning bridge into a hobby haha. Rox's house was like a gambling den without money. but i enjoyed myself anyway.

Sat met up with Dav like finally after a thousand yrs or sth. and sth super retard we were walking past Taka when this guy came up to us and said. huband and wife?! then i was like *wth look* and he said no. then he went on. EngageD?!. and we juz ignored him. like we look so old like tt. anyway went home for Jedi's b-day party. and Rach's mum's b-day too. haha. Happy b-day Jedinjenny. it was quite retarded. but the food was gd!. then some YE ppl came over to sleep. HORRENDOUSLY NOISY. BUNCH OF SEC1 Kids. onli 3 of them and so much noise. haha. i dun think the older ones were so noisy.but it was fun lar...this morn went for bowling then main service. i think no matter how many times u make me stand in front of a mic i'll still shake lor. haha. i was so so nervous i kept going erm erm erm. and then somehow i started crying. so super embarrassing. even my Mum knows now. but yea like exactly one yr ago. i dun regret sharing i guess coz in a way it gives me encouragement myself.

and a NOT SO SHOCKING DISCOVERY. Adult fare is FREAKING EXPENSIVE!. i can't believe i gotta live with it till duno when.

anyway. while u ppl are getting ready for sch...haah let me slack...for once ok.

God is GooooooD!

2005-12-26T20:21:00.000+08:00

haha i can't believe all that is over...the outreach, getting over the stage frights and all...and all that realli wouldn't be possible without...GOD! rem. i was talking abt being all nervous...but on friday itself...it felt so surreal...like i was in a dream. then it was the first time the whole of YE juz linked hands and arms as one and pray. we prayed for realli long. tim talked abt spiritual warfare...i think its so real...like the day b4 i juz woke up with a swollen eye when i had to go for a job interview. and this throbbing headache even till fri when i reached church. the sky was overcast the whole day...and i was thinking to myself. God will not let it rain...but when Paul did his intro and it started pouring. and someone frm my skit juz said WHY did he let it rain. i was juz thinking at tt moment. i had so much faith in Him tt it wouldn't rain and juz right smack at the start of our programme he let it. the nx thing tt came to my mind was. there must be a reason. but wad? i couldn't think of any beneficial reasons. but as i stood there...as all of us stood there everythin seemed to come to a standstill but i realised sth realli encouraging. instead of walking away. ppl actually took out umbrellas and stood in the rain watching. i mean yea perhaps a lot of them are our parents and frens but there were strangers we dun know tt were willing to stand in the rain to watch us.

the rain stopped later. we had to change our programme a lil. but everythin else after went smoothly. and i was realli glad coz i din expect standing on stage at paragon to feel the same as standing on stage in church for rehearsal. in fact, i was getting the jitters even more yest coz i felt its one of my last chances to appeal to my Dad.but again it was another disappointment.

anyway i loved all the presents i recieved! thank u all tt gave me sth HAHa. i simply adore tt cute round Cow Pang sai and Derrick gave...and the accessories i got...erm. and some BRIGHT PINK BILLABONG HANDBAG frm dex. rarr. i bet it was on purpose. but its ok i'll USE it...and no the biggest surprise was like this 1000 piece Jigsaw frm Sarah Kenneth and Debra! haha. the pic's damn cuute...

after service we all went trooping down to Mad Jack's...like 20-30 of us...crazy man. but the food was nice the company was nice and we had freee ice cream HAHA. oops. then Paul Mark Ah ma Sarah Jo Chan Gerald Moses and i went to KAP...and tried teaching some BRIDGE. while Moses and Mark juz gave up learning and started playing some lame BIG SMALL game. so by the time got to Ah Ma's house was like 2 plus am then we watched some Kungfu Mahjong till 5am...haha. ok i din finish watching. breakfast was DELICIOUs. hahaha. Turkey with french loaf and all....and lunch was even better...yummy.

ok i'm damn sleepy now...tmr's trial at Mad Jack's for my job...haha i hope i dun get sacked even b4 i get employed.

tmr...

2005-12-22T22:30:00.000+08:00

i'm kinda nervous abt tmr. i bet most of YE is too. haha. but well we'll pull thru coz God put us here for a reason and he's gonna make gd use of us. u know though practice started quite some time ago...it seemed like we've come a long way. like look at us 2 weeks ago at camp when practically everyone started frm square one. with onli the choreographers knowing the dance and the skitters having not memorised their lines at all. and here we are 2 weeks later ready to go perform at paragon. haha sorry i'm ranting but yea...

ok i haf a terrible headache. bye bye. :(

pictures!

2005-12-19T14:16:00.000+08:00

Adelaide 1...HERE

Adelaide 2...HERE

"b-day pics"...HERE

a gift

2005-12-19T01:14:00.000+08:00

super long since i blogged huh. haha welll 2 days after senior's night i flew off to Adelaide and came back on 14th and rushed off to Church camp on the same night.

Adelaide was juz...ok..v. laid back and stuff haha i told my mum the itinery's rather boring i think my free day shopping itinery was the best man. met Bryan somehow at the airport and he turned out to be in the same tour group as XH

camp was ok...and Thanks to YE for celebrating my b-day haha...erm no thanks for the cake smashing part ok TIM AND SARAH! theres still cake outside the toilet wall! plus the hee hee girls for their pressie! haha. and Shu for tt piggish dinner i got to eat on both nights

somehow i dun understand why its always after camp that ppl feeel much closer to God. i think the worships and msgs were realli gd...and personally i rather be the one standing amongst the seats worshipping rather than on the piano worshipping coz u onli haf one focus. but anyway i realise i cry a lot every camp rarr. haha but i was juz quite taken aback with wad my couz shared. like realli i know everyone knows that u dunno when ur life will be taken frm u. but the pt is its so duh until ppl juz dun take it to heart and wad Rach said was like a warning like my auntie could be gone anytime, my dad could go anytime and like who does not wanna see their loved ones in heaven right. Nelson asked our family group, so wad haf u learnt frm this camp. i think it juz affirmed my faith in Him. 2 weeks ago if u told me i'm gonna be able to speak on stage even in front of YE. i'll juz think its impossible. and someone told me this b4. juz rem tt God will not give u sth he knows u can't handle. so juz trust Him and haf faith that he will use u well.

went for "post b-day dinner" with Lizzie Chris Boon Xh and Justin yest. haha. there were like midnight sales everywhere and i went "shopping" fo rmy pesky bro and his dance stuff hahaha. strolled arnd haven seen them for a long time man...ok not THAt long. but still quite.

its 2am and my adelaide photos are still loading into shutterfly rarr.

Senior's Night

2005-12-07T23:48:00.000+08:00

Senior's Night pics!!! HERE.

ok a few months back i was contemplating flying off to Aussie yest. but i dun regret not. haha. quite sad act...its like realli the last last time we'll all be tog. as a class or as a whole big cohort again. looking at those slide shows yest juz showed how time flew these two yrs...with my OG dancing! omg. haha.

i was supposed to meet Lizzie and Xh and Chris and Boon for lunch at 12 at city hall. and guess wad i woke up at 11.55!!! with THREE alarm clocks. my gdness i wonder how i do tt sometimes so anyway Boon says she's repairing her bro's PS and Chris is...well i dunno. and so i reach there at 1 and see a v. hungry XH and Lizzie haha.

went to check in at Ritz after...and u wouldn't expect to WAIT to get ur room at a wad 5-6star hotel. haha but anyway the room's realli niceee...and Lizzie Boon and Chris immediately went jumping in tt pool downstairs. Amy came to do our hair and makeup...damn exciting! haha coz my face was juz so itchy all the time and she's like NO CANNOT SCRATCH!. and she curled my hair. i was rather surprised hoping i wouldn't look like an auntie.

and juz in the midst of these Justin called to be picked up to the room when all of us are like...dolled up and stuff. haha. at least he said we looked ok. then Alex came pouting away.

the whole night was juz pics and more pics. and stuffing dinner into ur mouth so that the waiters and change the nx dish for u. everyone juz looked so nice...rather diff. frm sec4 prom.

i think we haven changed this fast ever...after dinner we chionged up and changed and went down to take cab to club momo b4 12...save money. haha. and everyone in the lobby was like still in prom gear waiting for cab and lazing arnd.

so perhaps i would change my concept abt clubbing. i guess it all boils down to the company u go with. the way u behave and ultimately ur motive. haha. but anyway yest was really fun with our group...with a lil. of SD2. ut Sarah's bf's frens were realli nice lar. and Mac and Zp too. realli took care of everythin. and i conclude. dun get wasted pls. u realli look damn comical haha.

by the time we got back to hotel was abt 4am alr...finally slept at 5am...but damn shiok lar the sofa. yea i slept on the sofa AGAIN. and my alarm juz rang 3 times when it was set at 9.30am and we end up waing at 10plus. but check out was so soon!

met Nicholas and he brought us up to his Ritz Carlton Suite. tt place is freaking nice and huge can. its like 2 bed rooms with 3 toilets and 1 dining area and one 1 living room area. and a PANTRY! with jacuzzi and bath salts and oils and all! and best thing is. the ppl weren't in theroom! haha. super nice lar...

then we went for lunch at kenny rogers after check out. their macaroni cheese is juz.yummy!. oh no now i sound like a pig.

the lil spices in life

2005-12-04T23:48:00.000+08:00

so the end of the week wasn't tt bad afterall...went for lizzie's chalet. which in fact i juz went to SLEEP. but Chris cooked dinner/supper for me. so sweet! haha thx girl. her sausages and potato damn nice. then both of us greedy pigs juz stood at the fire eating while the rest went to play pool.i think its like the earliest i ever slept in any chalet...by 3am we were all sleeping. me in my "baby cot" coz i such a nice fren i let justin take the 3 seater sofa. hahaha.

yest was Ms Chia's wedding. first time i went to a church wedding...i dunno wad to say abt it...i would say its rather special...compared to wad i expected...then i was super duper late meeting sarah gerald kenneth and nick coz of...2 unforseeen circumstances. but anyway not bad lar...got race pack and everythin and we juz stood there watchin ppl play hockey on blades and skaters and stuff.

i'm realli tired noww.w.. i woke up at 3.30am...to wake somepiggies up. namely sarah and kenneth...ppl realli haf FUNNY habits like brushing their teeth IN BED. breakfast was juz damn farnie. with 3 of us trying to cut fruits and kill roaches in the kitchen at 3 am in the morning. so we get a heart attack when theres no sign of nick being awake at 4.15 so we call and call and leave 29 missed calls on his phone b4 we left and somehow dropped off at the wrong "stadium" haha.thank God everythin worked out and nick got there and we all got to run i guess...10k was like so much further than expected...

i've beeen rather whiney lately. i dunno why hahaha. i think the hee hee girls can tell. but anyway i banged my head on the stupid cupboard overhead yest and its juz damn pain...i should do sth interesting tmr to relief my bordem. esp. when i juz realise i haf piano at 7.45 am...sigh

today's skit prac was quite funny...with Char trying to act bimbo...and all...hopefully i manage to remember my confused parts.haha

boredem

2005-11-29T09:09:00.000+08:00

after exam life ain't tt fun at all! i'm DAMN BORED. someone save meee.

damn tired the last few days...fri went to sentosa to play tt DEATH ISLAND again...my gosh it was damn tiring. but my group was first again! hahaha. and thank God i din feeel TT old after all. coz theres always auntie shirley! who claims she's the 2nd oldest onli. haha. the p6s are so cute lar.

and its like the first time i discover how DIRTY LIEN is! haha with her OLIVIER PIG...grey dirty stuffy toy. hahaha ok lar its quite cute OK. and Saul has this Olivier too - a squishy soft rugby "ball"? haha. and Char's mike which was stolen in the night. but sleep was terrible. the room was freeezing cold. so i went to the sofa and like 3 of us were sharing the 3 seater and the girls inside took the sofa heads to sleep on so we had the dirty boards left. eew. and i juz woke up with many many insect bites.

suddenly shopping lost its kick and i'm damn BORED. coz Singapore's juz so so small. Sing Ying and i juz went wild over FOOD on sat lar. TCC and Fish and CO. i'm BROKE.and Sun went to marina again with Ah ma and sarah and the OLDIES frm church...hot pink BLack fingernails. my Ah ma's so hip. haha

joel was quite funny yest. msg me whether i haf the planet shakers evermore CD. and i tot he wanted to borrow so i said i dun haf!!! and nx thing i knew he said OH! i got ur b-day/christmas present alr! haha...now wad should i buy for him.

and i finally cleared my room yest....how long has it been since i neva seen books in my rooom

seriosusly i'm REALLY BORED. arGH

finally...

2005-11-25T01:13:00.000+08:00

the long wait's over...but it still hasn't realli dawned on me tt i'm kinda free now. haha. rather stoned.

went to parkway to collect our prom dresses today...juz stayed tehre frm 11-4...and shopped arnd...but i guess we were 7 satisfied ppl after. haha. met my mum at city hall after and i finalyl got a clutchhh...i still can't believe my luck in buying shoes can. i saw this pair at Bata in parkway and i came back and hour later and it was totally sold.

looking for some jobs here and there...wondering wondering...nx whole week's gonna be damn bz...prom...stand chart run...chalet...plus Ms Chia's wedding and all. arghhh...

one thing to be happy abt...exams are over and i can play my piano again! haha.

david: kill u for wad. like u'll change haha. i FINISHED alr. now whens my treat coming along.

joel: ZERO DAYS.

suden inspiration

2005-11-20T01:39:00.000+08:00

Be Strong and Courageous. :)

5 more...

2005-11-19T00:49:00.000+08:00

the time frm now till nx thurs...is taking DAMN LONG...mygdneSS like every other person finished alr!!! why is time passing so slowly for meee....even i'm getting bored of counting down. its not like i started too early

anyway i'm rather worried...abt someone close to me. ok "close"...i dunno...we hardly communicate. wad to do? anyone? juz pray for him?. the internet is an addictive place...plus the temptations of not suffering somewhere else...its not worth giving up ur future in tt like tt....

i wanted to say sth. but i kinda forogt...sth along the line of wad Dav said abt once trouble comes...the whole BIG trouble comes tog...i so agree man.

and this yr's papers are juz WIERD. i'm tired. replying tags...

boon: i'm alive today ain't i. hahaha. i can't wait!!! for monday or tues or nx THURS!

joel: HA HA sadly u end a few HOURS later on thurs. oops. i'm feeling mean.

XH: its ETERNITY. i can't even rem. how many times we're talking abt nx thurs alr. since dunno when

MRS SNAP aka CHRIS TAN: ur braces out doesn't mean u can SNAP AT ME TO SNAP OK! haha.i can't do it :( u better teach me.

dan: NVM.

HORRIBLE

2005-11-15T22:19:00.000+08:00

neva tasted such horrible tasting medicine in my life...and i was stranded at the Doc's coz my mum onli gave me 50 bucks and somehow the bill came up to 70 bucks...worth of horrid medicine.

i'm so irritated with myself for falling sick right b4 Chem2...and its like not up to me whether i wan to be careless or not coz i could hardly think this morning. the 1 half hours juz took eternity while i blew my stupid nose into 4 pkts of tissue...

then again, i was talking to joel on Sunday night and i felt tt i needed to tell him abt how God provides. and i keep reminding myself tt He wun put u in any situation tt he knows u can't handle. so no matter how u see a situation...u wouldn't think there would b any way out...esp. the way he makes it turn out in the end. perhaps tts y He's creative...hopefully He's spoken to u Joel. but tt still doesn't give u the right to TAG TT ON MY BLOG haha. its so not funny.

anyway, today i talked to someone whom i haven talked to in months. and i'm glad i did.sometimes.wad u see on the surface may not be all tts there.and i guess as much as u try to hide and change ur outlook tt others see. deep down u're still the same old u. and i'm happy for tt :).

derrick and dan: tts not farnie either!

zishan: hey! ur sis said u're sick. Get well soon haha :)

well at least my countdown's to...*drum roll*...EIGHT days...haha.

13 days...

2005-11-11T16:20:00.000+08:00

the last four days juz felt like a strange dream...and its over in a flash!!!...6 papers down! 4 more to goo...haha but i'm waiting in agony...but i'm alr. feelin rather drained...

b4 my first paper when i was strolling towards the sports com with Xh for the paper...i fell at the steps and kinda twisted my foot...and usually ppl say break a leg to give u gd luck...i guess the papers werent TT bad afterall. haha but its juz wierd wierd...

so being so tired after chem i took a nap...and found tt i couldn't sleep at night! so i forced myself to stay awake yest afternoon...it was pure torture...ur head can't think u feel like ur eyes are gonna close and they're so painful. but yet NO SLEEP...rarr.this is so retarded. so i called Sing Ying...and the things exams do to u man...she kept cackling like this mad woman...and put me on loudspeaker without telling me...haha and worst of all. she keeps getting me all excited and hyped up abt HONG KONG! haha and WORK...then i go sch and Chris and Lizzie gets me hyped up abt Aussie. now i dunno where i'm gonna find the time...

seriosuly i juz woke up. so i haf not much idea wads going into this entry. anyway. zzz.

18 days to freedom

2005-11-07T00:05:00.000+08:00

i think the nx 18 days of my life are gonna take eternity to pass. even the first paper is taking super long to come...though its like in one day...

i feeel so saturated..i think i'll juz vomit out everythin and not take back anythin after the As...haha

today i had this wierd debate with david and sarah. sarah said cows drink milk. i said cows drink water. david said young cows drink milk.

me: calves are not cows

david: cows ARE calves...if not u're saying tt babies aren't humans

me: calves are cows but cows are not calves. if not u are saying tt humans are babies.

talk abt confusing. Chris Tan's been SHOWING OFF her IPOD video and wadsoever. haha i'm SO NOT JEALOUS GIRL! haha.i'll SNAP my fingers for u to see ...somewhere in the near future.heh

11 more days...

2005-10-28T23:58:00.000+08:00

27 more to freedom...haha...time really flies...

anyway HAPPY B-DAY LIZZIE!!!...u better like our suprise...haha...i woke up at 6.30am juz to wake the piggy chris tan up so tt we could go to lizzie's house...so XH and i went arnd CCK in our sch uniforms buying char kuay teow prata CAI tau kuay etc etc etc...and yea we wer supposed to go for consultation with Mdm...but after stepping into lizzie's house and onto her comfortable massage chair...hahaha...we juz ended up chatting there till 12 noon...sorri if we killed u and ur bro's buffet breakfast at delifrance's dream...:)

went for my last math tuition of my entire life...seriously i dun think i'll miss it at all..hahaha she bought all of us secret recipe cakes yest as a farewell gift...so yummy...which reminds me...running running...haha

i still feeel bio's not in my head...and its like the first paper which is onli ELEVEN days away...3 weeks ago i tot 3 weeks wouldn't pass so fast...but i'm left with a week or so now...how now...

my pesky bro's flying to Perth on fri...i wonder whether i should b sad or happy...no noise would mean i can conc. more...but too much quiet scares me.hahaha

i juz keep thinking of all the things i wanna do after As...i dun think i haf enuff time for all man...as much as i hate exams...i realise these are the times tt u realli realise how God realli is there all the time for u...and how gd he's been...

-

2005-10-17T23:45:00.000+08:00

GP mock was damn retarded today lar..coz i fell asleep for half an hour b4 realising tt i had onli written the question on the blank fulscap. sigh.

chem tutorial was even "better" i was tryin to learn how to snap frm XH Chris and Mac...whichobviously proved unsuccessful until Mdm also said she can't do it! haha. and we surprised her with the flowers....an unexpected reaction though...i think even though she din show us much of her emotions these two yrs...she does care abt our results after all...haha.

after much waiting...we finally got to play squash lar...at first it was juz Vali Sherman Fong and i...but somehow Sean came along...and with Debbie Tang and Christian and one more guy...and then SOMEMORE ppl followed plus shaiwan...juz yest i was telling someone i dun miss squash training...but today i realise i juz miss the feeling of being in a team...seeing the J1s preparing for their open house and stuff...

went Holland V for dinner with Sherman and Fong after...my CRYSTAL JADE!!! haha CHRIS TAN see THIS OR NOT! 24th NOV!!! we go for dim sum feast. haha...and we juz strolled arnd looking for my bro's present...i wanted to go City Hall so tt i can buy my Chris Tomlin CD lor...must go buy! his songs damn nice.e.. haha...but anyway we went to the Party shop...and there were mealworms...and the tequila lolipop with a HUGEEE mealworm in it...how sick lar...i wanted to buy tt for my bro...but juz in case he gets drunk...so finally i get his present near closing time...

my knee joint's aching frm squash...i think i'm getting old for the sport...sigh sigh...tt gives me another excuse not to run tml...haha...feeling rather lazy lately...tml i'll be gd and spend the 24 precious hours minus sleep time STUDYING and TV...:)

Baccalaureate

2005-10-13T22:03:00.000+08:00

last day of sch wasn't tt emotional as i expected...but its like the first time in two yrs u actually hear ppl sing the sch song...haha...suddenly this whole baccalaureate thing juz became a mass photo shoot right frm the start way b4 assembly started...plus some ppl...pointedly TWO ppl...so po po ma ma abt taking pictures with SOME OTHER ppl...HAHA...

been a long time since i've been out on like a larger group outing with my class esp... Chris Lizzie XH Mac Jiajia Judy Boon and Chua...all happily headed intending to feast on bread and drinks at cartel...when we realised the cartel at Marina din haf circle seats...so we ended up at Carl's Jr...the food's not bad....haha one meal is enuff to serve two man...plus the yummy salsa sauce which came as "veggie" and sauce separate so everyone tot there was like a "side dish" of veggie. and we juz sat there talking rubbish for 2 hrs +++...with Mac and his retarded antics...and Chris and her amusing faces! hahaha...then Chris and i had to go for tuition :(. so tired...

anyway i've uploaded the pics...haha how fast right...Mel's B-day...and Baccalaureate Pics.

over...

2005-10-11T22:39:00.000+08:00

tml's like the last official day of my uniform life...haha...time flies. as much as i said i dun realli like this sch frm the start...i guess after almost 2 yrs here there still is some form of attachment to the sch..to the ppl...

and this is the most retarded thing Faris ever said to me. in exchange for his papers we were talking abt yami yoghurt treat...but too bad he's fasting...so he said " i rather buy the yami yoghurt bring home and wait till after my fasting time's over and i DRINK it up..."

i think everyone's losing it soon...thank gdness As are coming quite soon for better or for worse...if i had to go on for the nx yr like tt i can juz DIE lar...haha

Yest stayed back in sch to study...but i think the DINNER was better than the studying heh...Lizzie Chris and i juz went crazy over the food the parents support team brought...and we came to this conclusion: being the last u get the best...though not in every circumstance lar...haha...

we queued at first...there was onli rice and chicken...and halfway the potato salad came...so we ate..and then pasta and salad and fruits came...so there we went for 2nd helping...its SMALL helpings btw...then nx thing we knew...the PIZZA came...so theres the 3rd time we went back...haha

tmr's a longer day...bio mock after sch...and to Li Jing's house for tuition...1 more month 1 more month...i'll be the happiest person on earth...(how many times haf i said tt b4)

no looking back...

2005-10-06T22:20:00.000+08:00

its been quite a while since my last entry...life's juz been "studying" and more "studying"...

stumbled across someone's frenster...and i saw the photo of the India Squash tourney...and thinking of it i realli do regret juz giving up my chance juz like tt. this topic kinda came up during our bus ride to parkway this afternoon...as much as i think i'm sick of squash i dun think i can juz entirely stop playing it...

i know i alr. reached my peak in sec4-J1...but like i've been gradually declining all the way ever since entering JC...and think of it India was like one of the last chances i'll get to play in international scene...

time's running out! :(

-_-

2005-09-24T01:43:00.000+08:00

i think at the rate i'm getting bitten by mozzies...i'm gonna catch dengue sooner or later...haha its like at least 5-10 per day...my my...

moderated results are back...i passed everythin lar...but still at this time PASSES juz ain't enough...

and i juz wasted a lot of hours which could be spent on pulling my grades up on honours night and colours...seriously damn tired now. tues's rehearsal was super retarded with all the shuffling here and there with practically half the J2 cohort getting honours...plus tt uniform check...my gosh...but though we were meant to look like nerds i still think we all did look quite gd in no.2s considering we had to tuck in our shirts and be legal...well. i relearnt how to tie a tie again...i seem to be relearning it every yr...terrible. but anyway its damn irritating...i spent 45 min trying to get the right length for fong and i...and after four hrs of stoning obviously u haf a bursting bladder and gastric...coz dinner is at 9pm...-_- but well not too bad.

colours was juz damn sian today...yea i went to sch juz for double maths and double math..how redundant...the amusement of the day. Zhen lost her specs which were hooked onto her shirt. and for a moment i tot they dropped off while she was wearing it and she din even notice. this is the first time we were made to walk up 3 storeys to be seated at the balcony seating in audi...and walk down 3 storeys to take award and walk up 3 storeys again. its damn taxing on ur poor toes lar!. plus after i was feeding the mozzies at the busstop while 171 took eons to come haha

ok i'm super full of complaints this week...Xh can tell u tt...with my maid esp!. argh.

zzz...

results..are back

2005-09-18T00:40:00.000+08:00

one week in sch was...i dunno a waste? like our lessons all end at 1 plus now...and loads of free periods within...but somehow i was rather glad to go back to sch again...all tt prelim time table thingy was getting into me...like going to sch at odd times etc.

juz got back results yest..i was rather stoned..but i dunno wad to say...i juz know i dun wanna feel this way after getting my A level results...though not stoned in a very very sad way...but yea.

i'm glad i went out b4 my results came back...Mon watched the longest yard with Dav...hah it was damn farnie...quite worth watching lar...but its always abt tt american football AGAIN...like how RUGBY goes with AC...-_-...

wed was like retarded shopping with Fong...i finally found a swim suit i like.e...and Og was having 20%...now i feel bad typing this i'm not supposed to b going out now...

then thurs i still went out with lizzie chris and xh to haf a look at prom dresses....at least lizzie bought one at the last min...haha luckily we decided to head back to wisma...

i juz rotted in bukit merah lib with Sarah this whole afternooon till almost 10...but yea did quite a bit of work...i'm feeeling real stupid now...:(

anyway i went running with Nick this morning...and we almost got attacked by this stupid guard dog...coz we ran into private property area not expecting dead ends all the way...and to my horror. some one happily let his/her guard dog stand guard OUTSIDe the house...and it was liek ready to pounce on us so we juz scrambled up this steep slope

this feeling of deja vu...when i was almost retained in sec3...it feels like tt now...like wad i do for the nx 8 weeks is prob gonna alter my life almost for gd...

Slack...

2005-09-08T16:46:00.000+08:00

i've been slacking since hols started...ok mayb not so much but still...but i'm so proud of myself. i haven been going out at all this hols...:)...mayb coz every other person has exams nx week. Monday was juz a sleeping slack day for me...sian arnd at home...

tues and wed went to Cheryl's house to study...yea and we really did study lor...i haf nth to comment on her lil bro...he's like "cute" and i mean it both ways...sometimes i juz feel like strangling him...like after how he outraged the modesty of my phone with his oily hands after touching potato chips! and he BROKE my precious cross lar...and he happily sent Shai 8 msgs saying CRAZY when i haf not enuff sms alr...*faint*. but he's a rather cute kid...one more thing...we ate NON STOP lar...Cheryl's house is like unlimited food supply...first was chips and ribena then sandwich...right after tt spaghetti for lunch with chicken wings...then comes cake and chips...and DINNER...after dinner there was fruits and when her parents came back MOONCAKE tasting...wah but the white choc with liquor mooncake was damn gd...yum yum.

yest was not as bad...chips...PIZZa for lunch...then we went "Gym" haha with Cecilia acting retarded on the treadmill and swimming!!! and we had funny chats...its beeen a long time since we all sat down and talked since sec sch...then dinner was rice and dishes but swimming somehow makes one feeel hungrier...and there was fruits...and PIZZA HUt again...its 2 for $20 this hols!!! u feel like a PIG. and now my bro refuses to go run with me. plus i still haf buffet dinner tonight! oh MY...:(

ok better go do more chem...

tired!!!

2005-09-04T01:19:00.000+08:00

i think i haf serious lack of sleep since pre prelims time...still damn tired....but anyway...went back to SC on wed...din get to see many ppl though...watched the concert and haf to rush back to AC for honours night meeting...then went shop with Fong...haha and Cheryl joined us for movie...March of the Penguins...i din know it was somewhat a documentary...but anyway the penguins are damn cuuuteee!!! they move two ways. waddle waddle or slide slide on their stomachs...haha...so i bought my mummy this handprinted top for her b-day...and a LONG skirt...

and somehow on thurs i woke up late again...but i was earlier than XH! haha...still like tt skirt i chose for her..hahaha and its NOT SHORT ok...plus handbag...i was rather proud of myself...coz i onli spent on a belt...ok and mayb some colourful thingies...tt XH couldn't stop wad her dad would comment on...haha...yea and i got home to dear Rachel so at home on MY BED...ok my "bed" with books and all...squashed up in tt lil corner of space left trying to figure out her bio...haha its like the blind teaching the blind lar...ok but it ain't TT BAD ok...and i had like an instant junk eating machine on my bed..who left my sweets and nougats ON MY BED...can u pls learn how to throw ur rubbish away kaceng...haha

i still can't believe i actually turned up for teacher's day celebrations yest lar...ACES was KICK BOXING...which everyone reluctantly did on the field as enthusiatically as possible...b4 it started splitter splattering big drops of rain...and we juz got stuck in the hall waiting for half an hour or so...for a 1 half hour concert...but anyway i got picked up after by Dad at home to go for b-day lunch with my mum...wah the Lor Mee there damn nice...haha 2 bucks onli...yum yum...

dinner was even nicer...it was jap buffet...30+++ per person...but its ala carte and the sashimi's...yummy!. u wun believe how much we ate...until the pt my BRO can't EAT...hahaha u know how much tt is...

i'm still thinking if i should go for senior's night or juz take off to aussie after the run...haha...masquerade...hmmmz...

today was rather productive...went church to study with Sarah or like help out the bible quiz thingy with Shirley...though i wasn't of much help...haha...b4 music prac! so exciting...i realli miss the piano...haha....and rather rusty tooo...i'm so scared i screw up tml...but anyway went running with Sarah after...and had nice roti prata with banana and honey for dinner! food everywhere.e.e....thank gdness Dad has a dinner...so i got picked at 11pm...but i finished Chem A levels 2003! so happy. haha finally.

now i'm so sleeepy...*yawn*

da & shu: i meant...for tt amt of time lar! haha...

xh: haha dun u know wad Chris is like...the chaobin woman

OVER!!!

2005-08-30T18:45:00.000+08:00

finally..everythin's over...minus the As duhh...rarr...so tired...i fell asleep after i got home...though i went orchard for "breakfast/lunch" with Chris and Lizzie...and i met someone called DEXTER who was slacking there...wonder if he ponned sch..hahaha..it was like 11am onli lar...

piano exam realli sucked...its like my most important exam this time...and my book CLOSED halfway...-_-...i realli hope i pass lor..but the examiner was like the frenliest i ever met...but who knows wads behind tt smile...haha...sigh

reality hasn't dawned on me tt my nx exam would b the As...how scary is tt...i guess if i fail my As...i'll juz pia for a piano dip and be a piano teacher hahaha.

yest was damn retarded...feeling sian after paper i decided to run again to wake myself up to study chem...so i run...and i run to bukit gombak...XH's house...then i feel like run 45 min alr. might as well turn back...but i tot damn boring so i ran in a looop to hillview...and like my gdness lar...by the time i ran to hillview it was like 1 hr 15 min...and then it was 12nooon...so bloody hot...but anyway i decided to walk home...and i took half an hour...by the time i got home...i was sun burnt...and i guess i was running rather slowly...total dist. covered onli 11.2k. according to the street directory. hahaha

finally get to go back SC tml...see ms goh and the rest...how farnie...but fong and i gotta be in sch by 11.30 for the stupid honours night briefing...then class outing after tt! to ECP or Sentosa...hmm Lizzie's taking a LOONG time to decide man. haha...

i'm still thinking wad to get mum for her b-day...

exhausted..

2005-08-26T17:37:00.000+08:00

prelims are finally coming to an end...two more paper ones and a retarded music exam...and i tot i could happily go out with XH on wed...and then there came this announcement abt honours night meeting on wed -_-. like why can't they do it on a sch day...

yest was the first time i went running alone...and i realise its act. quite shiok. haha mayb coz there weren't many ppl arnd...considering i woke up late so i ran at 10am...when everyone's either at work or in sch...round the whole of bukit panjang abt 11km...and there were the wriggly grosteque centipedes along the LRT track at jelapang EEEW

speaking of these grosteque pests...on my way back juz now blk85's floor was full of ROACHES lar!!! and they were all moving in all directions...damn sick...feeeleeers super looong.

i wonder if i haf time to finish up all my bio tys mcqs by monday...considering i haf dental tml plus mayb meeting dav in e afternooon and my stupid studio prac for HALF an hour at night...

sian sian....should i go back SC nx wed...hmmm

running madness...

2005-08-24T00:05:00.000+08:00

math was retarded today lar...wads up with Stats lor...i haven seen such a LONG paper of stats b4...finished in 1 half hrs...the paper was 3 hrs...coz i couldn't do like 55 marks. haha. sheesh. i think huimin will juz faint when she sees my math results.

XH...tt isn't exercise...tts like trying to trigger off a heart attack...haha

supposed to Lizzie's house to study b4 running...somehow Justin Lizzie and i ended up at lot1 eating lunch and roaming the lib...so we reach her grandma's house and somehow migrate two floors up to laugh at her baby photos. haha...so cute...

by the time we got changed to run...i was half ready to sleep lar..weather so nicee today...and i learnt sth...nx time u wanna run with a crosser and a shooter...better drag the netballer chris with me! haha...they run so freaking fast...we completed almost 10k in 55min...plus at the mid pt...it was so near my house. i should've juz jogged home...haha

after tt i juz wanted to sleep at lizzie's house and not budge...but well tml's woodlands library...since we haf no papers..but still...i dun haf the push to study anymore....i think this Prelims is dragging wayyy too looonggg...

relief or stress man...

2005-08-22T16:55:00.000+08:00

bio option's over...not without much retardation in my facts. if anyone wanna know u can come ask me personally but omg its like the worst mistake u can ever make for a FACT lar...my brain juz wasn't functioning...even the increment in sth i also forgot how to phrase...

yest was damn stresss lar...sat after holland v studying i onli finished half of human repro...so yest i woke up late...and i went for math tuition. b4 going YE...and frm the time i got home...i slacked and studied...and by midnight i finished human repro and i left plant repro :(...but somehow i managed to finish it by two.haha..and by some even bigger miracle i managed to do human and plant repro once thru another time this morning...argh i'm ranting

today's weather's freaking hot lar...plus some GIRL made me run up the LRT train. haha...

i'm juz gonna rot and die for tml's math2...Stats are juz not for me man... :s

roar.

2005-08-21T01:32:00.000+08:00

my head's throbbbingg...why did God make us so complicated. reproduction is juz so complicated. i dun see wads the diff. between oogenesis ovarian cycle and and wadeva cycles. arent they all the same things! rarrr...

yest was a day rather wasted. woke up at 11. since i haf no paper. and went for tuition with Chris and Ben...after tt Daddy picked me up and we went for kaya toast at queenstown...went home..and went out cycling...yea i decided to take my bro's bike. his stupid gear spoilt. so i had to go gear 2 all the way on the tracks...then 1 hour into the tracks...we reached KJE and decided to turn back...and somehow i cycled over sth and my tyre punctured. so WOW. we pushed the bikes back like for another hour so to the market. and they ran outta tubings! how bad luck lar...so had to push home. my gosh.

and yea while i slept at 2 yest. i woke up at 6.30 this morning retardedly to go running with Nick...round bukit panjang b4 tuition at 8 plus...and went to Holland V after tuition to meet Sarah who was LATe again...haha...rather productive studying at coffee club...plus nice brownie! and cofeeee and tea..and wadeva...haha...

SJC's worship night was realli superb lar...i think they realli haf a talented music team...but overall it was gd...i could realli feeel the presence of God...nice seeing everyone again...and i think they all seemed to haf shrunk. hahaha esp. Ivan and Jessee...and Pastor Henry neva changes...still the same full of lame jokes etc etc. haha but it was quite an experience coming tog. with the other youths frm other churches...

Monday's approaching real fast...like real real fast...and my reproduction isnt done...how m i gonna pass my prelimss...

...

2005-08-16T18:51:00.000+08:00

boy-boy got baptised on Sunday...haha and he was super blur...he juz stood there blurly not knowing where to go after tt...and the whole sanctuary was laughin...ok i should b nicer to him. coz i passed my virus to him...muhaha...

went for dinner at Yacht Club with Cass and Rach's family...i think the three of us were damn greedy man...haha sting ray...satay...beef...chicken...sausage...pasta...fried rice...ok i'm hungry now...and there i was slacking the night b4 GP...

i think time is ticking damn slowly now...its like my nx paper ain't ever gonna come...today's papers were realli killers...ok mayb if i studied for math...more of the time and papers tt killed me...2 hrs Bio and 3 hrs Math...my brain is quite dead now...i pity those econs ppl who still haf a paper tml...haha...my head was juz throbbing after bio...

dinner time...*brain dead*

problems arent there for nth...

2005-08-12T01:22:00.000+08:00

i guess these probs are here for me to learn...but how? i dunno man...

i'm stuck b/w two. and i dunno wad i should do to help. terrible? wadsmore i haf nth to do with it. if i help her. i'll be betraying his trust. if i help him. she obviously wun b happy. so wad do i dooo...

why are u still so nice to listen to my rantings even though i ignore u at times. yea i guess u're being u. like how i get irritated at times. but u can't help either. and i haf no idea wad i'm talking abt.

soon soon...

2005-08-12T00:49:00.000+08:00

doom's coming soon...in like...4 days...and to think i've still been slacking...

Tues was 3 hours tuition in the morn...b4 going to shop with my mum for a while. haha. Bread Talk selling everythin for 1 buck...the queue was damn long...but my mum queueed and i took stuff...enjoy talking to her...long time since i had...yea and she was laughin at the fact tt Dav is as naggy as her...hahaha.

Wed was juz damn sian..tuition again in morn...same tuition somemore...but time juz flies...b4 i went JP to meet Da and Ian first to get tix...ok i TOT Bewitched was a bimbo show...but it turned out not bad lar...haha can make u laugh. Debra and Shaun were.e....sooo...suspicious. heh. and the "sprite". was like...soda water with a tinge of sugar. haha. and i got the christian tee shirttt...which Gerald the BIG COPYCAT apparently went to buy...

today was quite a moody day as well. first thing in the morning was my mum screaming at me to wake up at 6am...saying i'm gona be late for sch...and when i said i haf no sch she din believe me and went on scolding me on how come i ponned on monday and still pon today. grr. i was supposed to meet XH at 9.15 at jurong mrt. but i woke up at 8.45. so i met her at 9.30. waited to see Ms Chia for consultation. then we called the GP Mdm for like 2 hours and we juz couldn't get her. damn feddup lar. i mean prelims are on monday and monday's GP can't u even give us some priority. or at least haf courtesy to msg and say u aren't free. we alr arranged with u lar!!!. *roar*.

thank gdness i din miss the stupid 195...for huimin's tuition...and Chris and i ended up outside the lift for half an hour. coz she was late...

so sleeepy. hmph.

cough cough

2005-08-09T01:23:00.000+08:00

rarr. this stupid throat of mine ain't getting any better. but anyway yea i kinda slacked today...

i think i did the most retarded thing today too. i took the LRT to CCK juz to meeet XH so tt we can get a seat on the bus...yea i guess everyone was late...except poor Justin...haha who left his house at the same time for normal sch...but went straight to orchard and was drinking spinelli tea waiting for us...so three of us strolled to cine...wanting to get the tix...and were greeted with this...horrible sight in the elevator...there was a mass of toilet paper on one side of the lift...and it was drenched in dried blood...and on the other side there were huge blotches of blood and a totally soaked small piece of tissue...damn gross lar...fight also must fight in the lift meh...

but anyway we went up and the counters were closed...so much for being early...so we stoned at those tables there and watched advertisements...haha until Lizzie finally came after much fuss over her make up and dressing at home!...Chris tan as usual so BLUR...called her at 9 and she happily said i'm awake!!! i'm on time....then i said u're supposed to be here...she said huh. i tot 9.45....rarr.

Charlie and Choc Fact wasn't very very great...but it was not bad i guess...but i wun watch a 2nd time!(this is for Da to seee)...i'm so not watching it on Wed again k...pretty pls. haha

went Crystal Jade for lunch...damn a lot of fooood lar...but luckily we haf Chris and Justin...haha...and we bought a nice yummy cake for XH...

ok XH...photos u requested...frm today...haha

zzz...

roar...

2005-08-08T00:33:00.000+08:00

prelims are in less than 7 days...but this is so scary. i'm not even half as freaked out as Sarah is...its not a good sign realli. i haven finished much...i'm much more worried for my piano exam...sigh

still not v. well...and i feel this rubbishy flu and sore throat keeps making me give myself a unneeded break..

FOP was goood...but i still like the planet shakers concert much better...i guess its a diff. kinda appeal in drawing ppl into worship...its the first time i heard Delirious...but i guess i still think hillsongs has a way in bringing ppl into worship...saw many many Ac ppl there...met some SJC ppl...yea...but i ended up losing my voice on sat...

Friday was kinda "officially" the last day of sch for my JC life i guess...coz after this theres no more proper sch days...and i made it a point to pon LSP's lesson for one last time...haha...i mean no pt ruining my day in facing him for 40 mins right...

today's YE session was basicalyl worship and prayer...but i felt it was a gd time to get tog. for everyone to pray...and it was fun jumpin jumpin' with Shu shu...hahaha and da and mel and rach and bla...and to my suprise the rest also did tt too...

anyways...Happy B-day XH!...everyone's turning 18 except me...*sniff*

this is quite bad...i'm supposed to be studying non stop till nx weeek's papers...but tml i'm going out with XH, Lizzie, Chris and Justin to celebrate XH's b-day...tues...out with mum..and wed...cell time...haha...rarr. i din know Da was still so on abt cell outings when her prelims are a few weeks away...

but i think i'm a rather confused and mixed up person nowadays...coz there are juz never ending things to do...etc etc etc...zzz. med is making me drowsy drowsy. RARR.

sniff

2005-08-01T22:35:00.000+08:00

i think all the flu bugs frm huimin chris tan lizzie and mdm came to mee...i can hardly feeel my nose and throat now...humph. wouldn't even go sch if i hadn't arranged consultation with mdm tml...hopefully i can boook out...

speaking of mdm...she was retardedly amusing this afternooon...half my class took the lift all the way up to level 7...when we are legally allowed to go off at 1 and 5 onli...as we happily trot out...we walk into mdm...who suddenly came to a realisation why we walked outta the lift~. yea so there we went back to class and she said...ok! those who took the lift illegally come to the front....those tt walked up legally...wad punishment should we give them...?

well so after much debate she went...ok! u guys! put up ur right hand and repeat after me..."I, say your name, promise not to take the lift illegally anymore, at the risk tt i will fail my biology A level exams." and she was rather chatty...perhaps tts how u become after being seriously ill for 2 weeks. hahaha.

ok...the med is making me drowsy drowsy.zzz.

hmmm...

2005-07-31T01:20:00.000+08:00

lots of thoughts floating in my mind since quite a while ago...sth happened this aft. tt i feeel quite bad abt...i wish i hadnt even gone there...mayb it would've been better.

and there comes the thought of human behaviour...like why do ppl react differently to the same things...why do the ppl apparently closest to u seeem so far away... or why do they seeem not to care...

so anyway i managed to finish transcription and translation thx to yan leeeen. i dun understand how ppl can rem. their A level stuff way after their A levels. haha...then went running with Sarah...initial aim was to run half hour ...ran frm church to republic poly...to tanglin mall...and somehow we decided turning back v. sian...so we turned towards the embassy side and botanic gardens and ran to the junction b/w holland v and farrer rd...and ran up and down farrer rd and back to church...tiring but u feeel damn gd after tt...haha...abt 8km...perhaps running can take over my passion for squash...but i seriously doubt so...

its exactly 2 weeks to prelims...but i'm not feeeling the push to study still...this is bad...sigh.

rarr...

2005-07-30T12:43:00.000+08:00

huimin...u passed ur flu to meee..e.....*sniff*. well huimin's got a sexyvoice now. hahaha sounds so farnie i can't put ur voice to ur face anymore!!!.

suppose to go running and studying with sarah later...but its pouring like mad and my nose is leaking and leaking. argh.

so like half my class are already signing up for the half marathon...and justin retardedly signed up for the 42km...but i'm sure he can do it...hahaha...i think SD4 would do better if the prelims are actually a tougher fitness test than usual compared to a tougher academic exam...rarr.

yest went with Tim and min and sarah and their fren who happened to be a new teacher in AC...to Church of the Ascension for their worship night...i mean yea it can't compare to sonic fest and stuff..but it was gd...u could feeel His presence and all...plus this lady's testimony is juz kinda stuck in my head...its abt holding on to ur faith...abt how at this age ur faith is easily swayed and stuff...and how she had held on for so many yrs...and how God neva failed her...

well...off to church...ta.

zzz

2005-07-26T22:38:00.000+08:00

so sleepy...i miss playing church piano...i seriously dun miss classical...rarr...so many things i wanna do...and all coz of the stupid As...everythin's..impossible for now...

was in a rather foul mood today...i think i was getting annoyed and irritated at everythin single lil thing today...yea but i was quite retarded...went gym...body combat for pe...then 6km run...then went to acsi to get picked up so i played squash as well...

prelims are in 2 half weeks...i feeel like i'm stuck in a corner with no where to run...rarr...

not going sch tml...better make gd use of my time...haha...

anyone wanna run standard chartered half marathon...i'm not crazy ok!...

sigh sigh sigh

2005-07-24T00:19:00.000+08:00

i seriously think. i haven beeen this "hardworking" my whole life...after sch. go home. practice piano. watch tv. do tys...i think i'll go crazy soooon...haha...but suddenly after 2 yrs of not touching my scale books...my scales actually seem more interesting than my irritating pieces now...act. i do regret tt i found wad music realli means to my life a lil late...playing it is one thing...listening is another...

i finally went for double PE on tues...haha kick boxing...damn shiok lar...but it could've beeen better if there was a punching bag..-_-...i mean kicking and punching the air is damn retarded and its not tiring enuff...while listening to tt seriously gay sounding and gay looking instructor...and i neva knew push ups and crunches were part of kick boxing k...to music somemore! tt stupid song juz kept going on...and it was quite tough lar...even the guys had to do using their knees...poor arms.

*dead*

rarr...

2005-07-14T22:50:00.000+08:00

frm tml its exactly a month to prelims...and a month and a half to my piano exam...i can't for it to come and pass!!! but why can't i seem to get into the study mode!!!...rarr. to do prelims and piano at the same time is ridiculously retarded...but thank God the exam's on the last day of prelims...sigh...

youth sunday was a success~ haha...last time playing till my As...how sad...the weeeeks juz pass in a blur...

well yest went to Church...Tim got his fren frm melbourne to come down and teach some piano stuff...learnt quite a lotta stuff...haha but time to practice?...sigh...

hmm...anyway at midnight it'll be min's and da's b-day...Happy B-day!...hee hee girls...haha...

i seriously neeed some cheering up...rarr...

dying...rarr...

2005-07-04T12:11:00.000+08:00

i feeel like a pig. i set my alarm at 10 but it din go off...so i juz woke up at 12nooon...-_-...guess i gotta mug later...i've beeen out thurs sat and sun...

everyone's beeen playing after CTs and i'm dyin!!!...thurs met singying...sat met Abby...yest somehow Sarah and i ended up going bowling with Gerald's adult cell after dinner...they're a seriously amusing bunch...John Chee drove past this damn rich guy's house then Shuling and Dora wanted a 2nd look so they made him u turn to WAH WAH...haha...one whole row of ferraris...with the same number plate...basement carpark...whoa...and it even has a name...sth sth park...but anyway going out with the twenty sth ppl juz make u feeel YOUNGER!!! hahaha...

oh yea i think Mark Ho broke a record yest...first time i hear him talk so much! hahaha...he's juz as crappy as paul...u dotty dotty person..he was so rubbishy over dinner..telling me i can't sit coz his bag needs to eat!

friday went to church at 3....to stone..coz by the time i get home i need to travel out to church again...but anyways...i was having a damn bad headache and a horrid day....so somehow i fell asleep in Rm1...haha b4 i actually started my work...then prayer meeting was so scary at first!!! all the adults so quiet...and i felt so young heh...but anyway it turned out otherwise...this guy turned when he heard my name then he said ah! my daughter's also called hujuan...then Auntie KF said...har? ur Hannah's called huijuan also? then she began saying ur daughter's a mix of my daughter's and huijuan's name~...but the adults are much frenlier than they seeem.

and i haf gd news...i got outta my piano recital...haha...so happy...but i still gotta go to her house to play for her to hear...

i still feeel like sleeping....and i got this craving for durians...all Shao min's fault...rarr...time for lunch and work...zzz

time flies...

2005-06-29T22:18:00.000+08:00

its been 3 days since sch started....3 half sleepless nights...3 sleepy days...but so far i haven't got caught for anythin! HAHA...but well i'm realli tired...with wad i wonder also...everyone else except AC ppl are like mugging like mad got their CTs this week...and here we are slacking away...and now towards the end of ppl's CTs i'm getting msgs asking me to go out here and there...in a dilemma...my prelims are in 48days...can u believe it...FORTY EIGHT...other ppl's are like in 2 months....or even more...but the pt is...we all must take prelims...argh...

went to ayer rajar to do CIP at the day care again...Chonky left...so sad...din manage to go back during hols to say gdbye to tt noti boy...so Candice joined us today...and somehow..we got pulled into this amazingly amusing poison ball game...or should i say "poison ball"...hahaha i wonder who taught them tt...they made all of us cramp on top of the playground and this "catcher" juz tries to aim the ball...a v. v. HARD BBALL...at us...RARR...then we asked the kid...hit the head not pain ah...he said...oh...not realli lar. like tt like tt lor. hahaha...horrifying experience when they juz use all their might trying to whack u with the ball and with such a small area for u to move in...plus the scorching hot afternooon sun...we were like roasting in the heat...in our uniforms...-_-

so we had to teach this girl Sheryl how to do maths...and somehow i think we lost touch with PRI SCH MATH...hahah...how embarrassing...Fong and i initially wanted to leave at 4.30 to chiong to Pizza Hut by 5 to catch tt lunch time deal for dinner...but pondering over tt math...we reached pizza hut at 5.05!!! can u believe how maddening tt was....haha...but anyway we passed cash converters...and i managed to get 2 CDs at 10 bucks...MLTR! i think tt album's like super old lar....haha...

Uncle kenneth called me this afternooon to ask me to play for prayer meeting once a month...which means i start this fri...so scary lar...going there alone....gotta find sth to doo after sch then...looks like there goes my thought of going for bible trail...

ok off to do chem tys...sigh.

sch...prelims...As

2005-06-26T23:16:00.000+08:00

argh...hols over...though i haf no CTs...prelims are coming in like 6 weeks...

i guess playing piano for main service would be considered my "last" till after my As...or so Tim makes it seems...haha how sad...but i'm realli glad worship went well today...actually had to leave right after worship to go to Peilin's house for her baby's full month...but i decided to stay...since some ppl began shoooting the evil eye. hahaha jk...but amazingly...the preaching was short and sweet but he got his pt there abt the Great I Am...and we finished the whole service by 5.30...

by the time i got to the house it was abt 6.45...finally got to see Chong Hui botak~ hahah...but well he dumped me there to sian arnd and went off to tekong...so i ended up falling asleep in the mahjong room...

dex: u missed the tag on top lar...it disappeared already hahaha

steph: heysss...

sarah: no circus! onli got BIRD SHOW! but ur bird nest got chopped off! so SAD!.haha

shu: yea i kinda agree abt u being more ego...hahaha...

kenneth: yea yea...i'm dead...haha and u're not a SUB LOR! how can u be!!!...this thing cannot sub wan...hahaha juz a place to let out my rantings...

sigh...

2005-06-22T01:10:00.000+08:00

haha i feeel so smart suddenly i actually TAUGHT Ian( the hee hee guy) how to do MATHS!...SEE AC brains aren't tt FRIED as RJ's k...

everytime u need help or someone to turn to...u turn to Him...but when u dun...do u still talk to Him?...but again...He controls all things...so wad m i trying to say...i dunno either...-_-

"My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." - Psalm 73:26

why m i always so bored...

2005-06-21T01:21:00.000+08:00

think of it...i think Sg is a rather boring place...its juz studying shopping or some outdoor activites...rarr...zzz...

today hasn't been realli fruitful with me doing my chem tutorials onli...when u haf nth but work to do at home...time does move like a snail...same for tml...

anyway...Ah Ma Myrtle's looking for ppl tt can perform...haha for wad i dunno...but Ian suggested this : ask Sarah to act in the bird show! haha...

there was part of a chi show i found rather amusing at tt pt of time...translate into chi

he: ppl are spreading rumours abt us! i think i should stop coming b4 they get the wrong idea

she: why do u care what ppl think or say! if ppl like to talk shit...we dun need to at like toilet paper and clean the shit up right!

ok mayb it ain't tt funny. but at tt time it was k...haha...sigh i'm sleepy...shall do QT now...

lien: are u the DOT DOT DOTTY PERSON!.

pang sai: wads with ur dots too! why is everyone into dotting!

blessings

2005-06-18T01:03:00.000+08:00

pulau ubin today was damn fun...but now i'm aching all over...after cycling non stop for 3 hours plus...the animals there were cute!. hah...well at least now i know cycling on those dirt treks isn't as easy as it seems...but i dun mind going again...:)

a convo with ben sets me thinking a lot...like seriously...haha like when's a NEED a NEED and a WANT a WANT...could there be a possibility of both? many a times u feeel tt God has not blessed u enuff...but unknowingly...the person/thing right nx to u could b ur blessing...but u juz dun take his/its value for granted..then again...if u dun lose u dun realise how blessed u are...

"char": i'm sure lar shu...u're like SUPER NICE to urself right...hahaha...

da:...nvm...i dun think u'll get wad i mean until u read shu's blog...

Shriek Shriek Shriek...

2005-06-16T22:59:00.000+08:00

i was utterly shocked when i walked into the ACSI squash courts and heard SHRIEKS sounding like my SC juniors running and playing arnd in SC...yea they were Sec1 boys...highly amusing...haha plus my mum saw them and went...ah! dun they juz loook SOOO cute...omg damn farnie...should've seen the looks on the lil boys faces when they heard tt...they juz stopped wadeva they were doing...

finally got my zen micro exchanged...and my mum juz brought me on a shopping frenzy...guess she's feeling rich today? haha. she got like...whoa...so "much" stuff...i got nth to say...i even scrambled trying to save money for her...

today with my lil bro complaining we're late since we left late...so when we turned into the sports complex curb the clock tower started chiming 9am...and my dad's like...eh right on the dot k~.

this though juz suddenly dawned on me today...tt as u grow older...it juz seems harder to be satisfied...but sometimes the simplest things can give u the most satisfaction...without u even spending a single cent.

lizzie: hey girl!. haha wad happened to our outing!...dread sch reopening...

...: hello~...u haven said who u r...haha

dex: tchs turn RJ! i'll beat u in puzzle bobble k...break ur 99999. rarr.

lesson to be learnt...

2005-06-15T10:22:00.000+08:00

when u speak to ur wife/mother...pls AGREE to wadeva she says at ALL TIMES...or get ready for a lecture...haha

dad to me: ok i will sponsor u half price of wadeva u wanna buy

mum: wah see lar...he treat u nicer than he treats me

mum: if u wan ur Dad to buy u stuff...u better be nice to the person dearest to him. *admittedly herself*

dad: Eh heard tt...she wans u to be nice to her

mum: right papa?

dad: *watching tv*

mum: *exasperated look*!

spent the last two days trying to study and i was rather "fruitful". with both the comp and my work. haha...my mum's suprised i din even go outta the house...

ok replying tagsss..

kennethh: there u got ur answer...haha bet u're climbing the mountain now...

da & shu: hey!!. and it wasn't realli standing up lor! u were like squatting!.

ruik: i'm sure lar...haha

pangsai: u dun wanna be jealous then go RJC lar. haha...

sth amusing...

2005-06-13T13:47:00.000+08:00

sth amusing during taboo on sat...mayb not to u guys. but to three of us.got it frm shir's blog.hahaha

the word is regular.

shirley : you know, sanitary pads, they have the heavy ones, the ... ones, ...

juan : overnight?!

tim in the background flapping his arms like wings.

another thing ...

silicon valley became the "word" for implants. haha

and in Sarah's case...she says: magnificent this one!...and pulls her bra strap

word was wonderbra.

newpics!

2005-06-13T11:42:00.000+08:00

somemore new pics...haha

YE Family day pics, tree top walk pics, plus a lil of the autistic children camp's pics.s....click here.

for some rojak pics of my family etc etc...click here.

campfire was fun...played musical chairs and limbo with all the kids...and tin wai cried...coz of someone...*evil looks* haha...

so some handful of YE ppl went for the tree top walk with the GB and BB...Shu was my partner ! and we got first...hahaha...see Ian...dun talk too fast...SC girls are no bimbos man. but the walk was quite a disappointment...i tot it was meant to be 3 hours. haha...photos are already up...yea but overall it was fun...

first time i actually stepped into thomson plaza man...for lunch with our groups...b4 heading to Tim's house to chill out...boggle, taboo risk again...but i think i got hooked onto taboo. the oldies make a great team :). Rach came to my house after koping all my books...my whole shelf looks naked now...b4 we went over to grandma's house to get bored so we came back to my house again...

another boring day...study study study...-_-

tired !!! RARR!!!.

2005-06-08T21:42:00.000+08:00

i'm totaly SHAGGED... i guess the same for Shir Tim and Min...haha...been helping out at pathlight sch children camp...frm monday till tml...

the kids being autistic are a lil slow at catching stuff...took quite some time to adapt on the first day...but i realise tt i neva had so much fun with a bunch of kids b4...haha...Cedrick's this lil cute kid who sulks and haf this grumpy face every morning and sleeps arnd in class...but he's super cute!!!...and theres Tin Wai...this girl whom i look after the most...who's totally love sick with every other guy...haha...first with this malay guy then with one of the other volunteers...scared him off...and she's driving me a lil nuts...but still...and theres another girl called Krystle...who goes arnd with Quan Jin saying..."wo yo wan diao diao diao"...damn farnie bunch of kids...seriously some of them are realli damn smart and haf superb memories...some draw really well...

more of an eating camp to me...its like one activity then morning tea...another..then Lunch...another then afternooon tea...haha...and all of them eat like hungry wolves...well...today Shir Tim and i got to relieve our childhood memories at Pasir Ris Town Park...hahaha...on the swings and the see-saw...i'm gonna drop dead any moment...tml's camp fire!..

trying to cramp in some study time....but i keep falling asleeep since monday...argh~~~...behind schedule...

sighhh...

hair...

2005-06-04T22:22:00.000+08:00

haha i can't believe it but i actually got my hair cut for 7 bucks...and its the first time i see a house cum saloon in a condo...hahah...well went with my mum and we were juz left at the bottom of the blk waiting for my dad to come...

its been a long time since i went for a meal outside with my parents...yea coz my bro stubbornly refused to come...

i actually planned out a schedule....i HAVE to complete it by this hols...argh...need some discipline...looking forward to the camp nx week...

wad a boring day...

shop till we drop...?

2005-06-02T23:31:00.000+08:00

mummy took leave today to bring us shopping...by us i mean...me, my pesky bro..and somehow marcus...haha...my mummy's brilliant idea...so my bro wun complain...and seriously its like the best shopping trip we ever made as a "trio" no whinings...no complaints...juz happy...till 2 irritating groups of ppl dampened it...

well firstly, i got stopped at orchard mrt by some girl...who asked if i was interested in wad appearing on tv or dunno wad etc etc...and my mum turns back and thinks she's my fren?! then while trying to tell my mummy wads it abt...i juz give up coz she can't hear me...and we juz stroll off leaving tt girl dumbfounded...orchard mrt's a dangerous place...

2ndly....while off to look for my bro and marcus at paragon's toy department...we get stopped by channel u...GRRR...and both of us ended up standing there for 5 -10 min answering their rubbishy questions abt mother and daughter privacy and stuff.....like wad do they wan frm it right! i hope i dun appear anywhere on tv man..i'll juz SCREAM. ARGH.

damn tired...somehow...shopped frm 11-4...then we all sat down in bukit panjang plaza in the end eating kaya toast...leg rest time...

i guess real studying gonna start tml...Sarah u better not be late...actually wad m i saying this for...u will be no matter wad...hahaha.

sians...

2005-06-01T22:57:00.000+08:00

its still quite ridiculous when i think back on how i met Abz and how we became gd frens...but i realised tt since JC...the neoprints i took are mostly with her...or YE ppl...when 2 broke pl walk arnd orchard...all they can afford is...SHROOMS MEAL...and it never tastes so gd until u're hungry...and suddenly Abz juz tells me. u know the sauce in the burger is the same as the mash potato's...and the sauce on the mash potato juz turns out to be...wad...chicken fat? haha. another reason why we're broke its coz Abz juz makes ppl spend...grr.

anyways....Sing Ying this is for u...dun say i din "say" anythin...Happy Birthday to uuuu! Happy Birthday to uuu! Happy birthday to Sing ying! Happy Birthday to uuu!...yea u're a yr older but u're still my best fren. hahaha. nvm...i'm talking rots...i should b honoured u rushed to orchard for me huhs...hope u like e present~. and i'm helping u save money k...be thankful u din buy tt holey jeans. hahaha...i think i got the deal with my mum over tt espirit shirt...*grin*

being broke is quite gd in a way i guess...makes u think twice b4 purchasing anythin...tml's shopping with mummy...plus my pesky bro and marcus..boo. haha...i hope i dun get whining again

k reply to tags...

Sihua: haha if u come here more often i guess its faster?

XH: stop whining...haha u'll get a chance...dun worry so much ya...abt CO or abt him...they aren't everythin!

da: hellooo...dun stress already!

zhubadi: haha yea...i realised she was pmsing yest...thx for listening to my droning and rubbish...

Pang sai: Hellooo...go back haagen daaaz to work then i can get discount! haha

hols...like no hols...

2005-05-31T00:29:00.000+08:00

mel did well leading worship at main service yest...haha but i guess i kinda screwed up some intros...but all did go quite well...considering the amt of practice we had...

Dad was working...so my bro and i went to city hall to meet mummy...haha...its been a long time since three of us were out like tt...well somehow some greeeen caterpillar decided to cling onto me...and while i was half asleep on the bus...it crawled to my neck and my first instinct was to swipe it off...so suddenly i felt gel like stuff and i saw half a green caterpillar squished...and i went ARH! n flung it towards my bro who was nx to me...and he went OI!!! stop it lar!. then i turned behind to my mum who was sleeeping to get tissue...so i tapped her and she went...ARH!? then the indian worker nx to her jumped...and everyone else was staring...damn disgusting lar!!! i wonder where the other half went to...:X

today was quite slack...but i'm gonna make it a pt to wake up b4 9 every single day this hols...to make full use of my morning to study....

met Tim and Rach at PS...looked arnd for keyboards...and it was fun trying out all the funny sounds...then Ben came...and we got Char's present...b4 heading to Da's house for the surprise party...

watched My Girl...haha the ending disappointed me lar!!!. :(...but everythin else was fun...poor Eugene's phone was dunked along with him...hopefully it'll be revived...haha...

meeting Abz tml...after a super long time...and Hafidz was supposed to come along. but somehow. he's dead thru sms...hmmm...

sigh...

yum.

2005-05-28T23:53:00.000+08:00

so the last weeek of sch has passed...which juz means its time for me to get down to some serious studying b4 i fail my As...

tues was tennis finals...saw quite a few of my old frens...Sc...1st three months...ppl changed a lot...haha...but we all got bored halfway..so Xh Lizzy Justin and i went to KFC since XH e pig was craving and craving for zinger since early morning...

watched Camelot...it was good...but it ended super late...11.30...we all saw Dan's ex...haha...so somehow XH and i ended up sitting with Justin, Yong Thieng and their fren...and it was quite amusing when Yong Thieng exclaimed...Eh!!! the Photocopying shop lady is one of the dancers! but she turned out to be a J1...so my Dad gave Justin a lift home...and i realised he lives like super near Paul. their costumes are so pretty...:)

friday was the best...Rugby got e championship title...netball too...plus our Odessey of the Mind...we were world champs...haha so during assembly Kelvyna was like announcing and while Lizzy and Chrissy were all unable to sit still she finally announced we had half day off! haha. i think practically everyone was in no mood for studies la...even e teachers...but somehow i caught the flu...so Fong and i went to shop after we had our squash meeting...walked and walked and walked...watched Monster In Law...which was rather farnie...and i had SUBWAY again! Rach see this! lets go soon.

today was a super boring day....but considering i woke up at 12 ...wad day m i talking abt...but anyway slacked my afternoon away...though i managed to squeeze in some time for chem hw...then i went to church for music prac and to Pan Pacific to some Jap restaurant there...my 6th Uncle treated like practically half our whole extended family to dinner coz he earned some $$$ i guess...chawanmushi was the most "silken" i ever tasted...haha nicest Cha Soba...but there was this mini fish tt looked more like bait tt i chopped into half to share with Rach...but we din reckon tt it was actually filled with fish eggs...wanted to puke man. but overall it was GOOD haha...well when the bill's $1600 for 15 ppl and still not good. then theres a prob...plus to top it off we had green tea ice cream...:)

seriously need some discipline to make myself study for the nx 1 month...or should i say till the end of the yr...someone pls help!!! haha...sigh...

another of my couz Chong hui's coming over to stay like in an hour...he went for some party arnd here...hmmm...its already 1.30...mayb i should go sleep...zz

ZZZ

2005-05-23T12:39:00.000+08:00

been out the last 5 days or so...need to replenish energy man...haha...

thurs was shopping with Lizzy XH Vali Shirin and Dan...finding Vali nice stuff to wear to the choir concert...but i got a buy at 14.70...original price 49...then i met stupid Tim Chan who scared the hell outta me...in Zara...everywhere's sale now...tts how i stumbled across this OG 20% storewide sale...and it included all adidas products...so met Singying after sch to get the adidas shorts which i was trying to find all this while...haha...poor girl waited for an hour...since Pui Yee let us off late tt day...well she dragged me to Fish and co to satistfy her craving after...and there was some promotion for free flow of kola tonic...yum...felt realli sick after...Lizzy popped by after meeting Roryyy so by the time i got home was abt 9 plus...zzz...

Sat was fun...but first i had to go to the place i'm terrified of...the dentist...grr...juz a childhood horror...haha...but anyway met some Ye ppl to go to Tim's house...lunch was initially nice...but it turned out to be a nightmare when my pasta din seem to be diminishing after much effort...so we palyed taboo...the youngies vs oldies...and risk and boggle... wanna play risk againnn....and there were so much chips and salsa...min already started nagging at Tim for buying so much hahhaa. after tt went to Ting's house for squash bbq apparently...but for once the girls din need to move juz sit arnd and get served...

Yest was a crazy day...considering i slept at 1 on sat...woke up at 7...go to Bird Park for COGS Family Day...had treasure hunt...but trying to drag a group of oldies with u to run is crazy...so it was rather slow moving considering my group had the hardest route...then abt half of YE went to Safra Mt Faber to bowl...and play pool...or eat? haha. by the time we finish was abt 7...and we juz stood somewhere debating where to go...b4 we ended up at great world...and while waiting outside Zara...i had this big scare frm Tim Chan AGAIN...who was laughin like mad...and somehow i ended up going to watch Star Wars 3 with 10 of them...and the show ended arnd midnight...so i was super shagged by the time i fell asleeep at 2am...

well....trying to do some work now...b4 Rach mum comes and four of us go out...theres some belated mothers day celebration at my ah ma's house tonight...grr....

last...realli the last...

2005-05-18T22:06:00.000+08:00

had my last official combine schs match juz now...happy tt it all ended well...at least i din feeel like i let anyone down...

stella called yest...its been ages since i talked like tt to someone...as in...realli abt stuff...and i guess coz we both haf the same views on this certain matter we're able to confide in each other...sigh she's leaving for melbourne for GOOD in like a few weeks...:(...

stella: this is specially for u...haha...i've never met someone with so much passion for God...and with so much faith...i'm realli thankful u came into my life...though we started off as squash rivals...in MG and SC...but i guess much wouldn't be achievable in AC without u...i'll rem. the time when u dragged us outta bed early in the morning to sch with a vegetable pie for breakfast and off to training like mad for semis...haha Take care and come back to visit us k!.

well i guess nth much's happening...except for Mdm Tham's ridiculously amusing lectures on sexual reproduction...but she's seriously a scary lecturer...haha...

devotions were more or less on sincerity and integrity today...it realli made me think...coz it is sth tt revolves arnd sch...wrong actions...no matter how small or harmless...its still wrong...

full...satisfied.

2005-05-15T22:48:00.000+08:00

terribly full now...Ah Kor treated us dinner again...my family and rach's...damn full man...and somehow my Dad took a liking to drinking coffee after like the other time...so there we went to One Fullerton...to Baker's Inn for coffee...yea Rachie drank an air freshener tea...Lavender Tea...hahaha...but the breeze was nice and stuff...

seriously its damn stress going for meals with Ah Kor...everythin has to be prim and proper or else she'll juz rap ur knuckles or sth...*shiver*.

anyway seems like my at first nth to do holidays suddenly became packed full with activites again...argh! my studies how!!!

2SD4

2005-05-13T22:17:00.000+08:00

is it me or is 2SD4 realli getting united...seriously i would neva have dremt of this day...my worstest fear came true when my class was one of the few to be split into pieces after the 1st three months...its not like i loved AC a lot either...but since i was already there i had to make do...so i said...ok i shall juz be gd and quiet and shuddup and study...but i guess God juz brings enjoyment to u everywhere u go too...i feel blessed man...haha and ironically, Blessed and Made Me Glad are juz playing on my stereo...

i tink i kinda felt the same way when i first went to YE...in a diff. sense though...with a diff. aim and purpose...the whole of YE juz seemed to be the "graduates" of sunday sch...and i was one of the few foreign ones...and esp. when Da seemed soooo DAO!. haha see this da!.

the LAST bio spa tml...then i'll be over and done with with ANY SCIENCE PRACTICAL for LIFE i hope. hahaha.

finally gonna meeet Lynn and Cheryl again with Sam tml...sigh gonna go broke. coz i owe Cheryl her b-day lunch...:(

photos...

2005-05-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

click here for squash prize giving photos...

and here for the dinner with some Ye ppl...

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2005-05-09T23:20:00.000+08:00

v. sian day...nth much...but i got the squash camp pics up... click here

so many things!!!

2005-05-09T00:01:00.000+08:00

past few days have beeen super hectic...2SD4 seemed to haf bonded over jelly making and cookie baking...thx to the EXPENSIVE CAMELOT tix...grr...10 100 bucks tix to sell per class...is retardedly expensive...so there we were at the bleachers having class meeting on thurs...

friday juz passed in a whirl...the girls booked outta sch early to go down kallang earlier to support the guys...all of them seriously shaved...whether its their commitment towards the team...or team spirit...they fought hard...we lost 4-1...but its still an achievement...congrats :)...prize giving after...and i juz took many snippets of my last time in intersch squash...

finally our "jumping shots" were successful...Stella should take a look man! we're not blurry anymore...haha...well gonna post the pics up soon...as soon as this cranky internet system allows me to...

so after much debate we headed to KFC for simple team dinner...or "team" dinner...and down to suntec we went...to satisfy the guys requests...$9.50 for kingdom of heaven is retardedly expensive too...grr...

but after much though the show's quite a gd catch...but not when i dunno wad was going on 3/4 of the time...till Tim Chan began explaining after the movie...thx to J Lo...who went on tt KOH was abt some guy who fell in love with a beautiful princess and some DRAGON came to snatch the princess....haha...

reached home and midnight and subsequently conked out...having to wake up at 8 plus the nx morning...when Justin came so super early to start the jelly making...followed by Ian and Vic who overslept...grr....had fun looking at our photos when we were younger....then the rest came arnd lunch time...18 pkts of jelly powder is simply crazy work...after tt we were all dead tired...and headed to bukit panjang plaza for dinner at Mos...yum.

bought the choc sensation cake for mother's day...yea my mum showed me the advert a week ago...so there she was on the way back frm church thinking tt she's gonna try tt dark choc cake someday...and she reaches home and she finds it in our fridge...she was so elated...she was grinning frm ear to ear saying i'm gonna wake u early tml to eat this cake...hahah...

today as usual...tuition and YE....but the weather's seriously mad....it was raining like MAD...i agree with whoever said it was amazing how God held back the weather for POP~...haha...

went to Daniel's house for some cookie baking after...wad a house husband la...plus his mum's damn pro...haha...its like one batch in one batch making...the batch out of oven...another batch goes in...like factory...

and i learnt how to make another kind of cookie dough! haha...yay we can go baking on new yr's eve again drey and huimin and ian!...

so i ended up eating dinner with Rachie and family again...where there was a roach scurrying arnd the grass patch...making my couz jump outta her seat after the whole dinner...and making ppl frm other tables stare...haha...

well...i hope jelly and cookie sales go well tml...if u're an acsian u better buy! haha...

another chapter...

2005-05-04T22:20:00.000+08:00

guess marks another chapter closed in my life...last match of season...and of intersch. juz feels wierd...but i'm glad we all ended it well.

yest huimin msged abt helping out at some children's camp...so looks like i wun be so bored studying my whole june hols now...haha

so its time to start mugging...sigh...i suddenly feeel so free...with POP! over...and season...now wads left is studies. argh.

burnt

2005-05-02T22:50:00.000+08:00

YE was more of a time for fellowship yest...with tt POP concert video...its damn amusing seeing urself on tape...haha...plus pizza...and writing cards to all our guests...

after the "dinner" which ahma myrtle asked me to go out for...turned out to be a 14 ppl affair...hahaha...lets see if i can recall...ah ma, debs, rach, martin, jon, ian, john, paul, yanleen, gerald, steph, kim and shir...yea all trooped down to cine food court...where i had a once in a lifetime super wierd experience with the cleaners there....haha...and we celebrated John's b-day...with a slice of cake...b4 heading to starbucks to slack somemore...

today i was at clementi mrt at 9.15! supposed to meet Yan Leen Ah Ma Ian Paul and Gerald and as usual...the rest were LATE...somemore Gerald and Paul stay IN clementi. gdness me. so we took off in 2 cabs...to SICC...for tennis...frm 10-12 under tt scorching hot sun..haha but it was damn fun...their toilet damn nice man. and the weather being so hot. i tink i rather stay in the toilet and stone than go out. haha...

went to simply bread at sixth ave for lunch later...super full la...then Yan Leen Ian Paul and i went to Gerald's house for mahjong apparently...Gerald's fren Sam came to join us, followed by Ivan and we played RISK...haha my 2nd time playing proved tt i still had some "luck"...got wad the 4 guys called "iceland troops" hahaha...yea and we stopped the game b4 all my troops got wiped out...

back to sch tml...season's realli gonna end for gd on wed...wonder wads in stall in the future....

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2005-05-01T00:47:00.000+08:00

last training today wasn't so bad afterall...somehow when u see Mr Tan...all tt u feeel tts his fault or wadsoever...it juz disappears. training was supposed to be at 10...but anyway we sat there talking till 11 plus...Mich, Si Hua, Mr Tan, Myself...b4 Fong Zhen and Iris joined us later...remniscing the old times...5 yrs back juz brought back happy memories...there arent any tears this time...juz peace i guess...

training wasn't realli training at all...Zhen and i played 2 on 1 with Ah Tan...b4 heading to the cafe for drinks...juz Fong Zhen Iris Myself and Ah Tan...i tink we were superly thirsty...considering we bought like 12 drinks between us...with snacks...and we juz sat there talking till 2.30...till Mr Koh came...

so the four of us went swimming under the scorching hot sun...i tink inside a pool with warm water is better than outside with the humid weather...yea naturally we all came out burnt as usual. at arnd 4 plus...and Fong and i juz made our way to Orchard to finish our present shopping again..."present" more like it...yea i got the presents i needed but she ended up buying clothes for herself instead. haha.

heard the guys are gonna shave bald...tts wad they said...IF they beat HC...now tt they haf...i wonder...

i'm starting to get tired of J2...everythin juz seems so monotonous at this pt in time...lost my push to study hard for As...sigh...sometimes i wonder would it have been better if i had gone to poly instead...but somehow i guess God has placed me here...oh wells...zzz

2005-04-30T00:38:00.000+08:00

i dunno where to start frm...i ponned sch on thurs...spent the whole day cleaning my table and stuff...but in actual fact i guess i was juz trying to think abt wad happened on wed...till today...i keep having flashbacks of my game on wed...yea its easy to get over it...but not forget....it juz seemed too familiar to last yr...and i rem. i told myself tt wadeva happened last yr...would b in the past and would neva happened again...but after i stepped into the court and Jia gave me a hug and said...no hard feelings...it juz all came back to me...yea as wad Madam and shums said today...i guess i had a mental block...of all matches in my life...my 2nd last match for intersch ever...

someone told me "SC girls can't take losing"...yea i guess to a certain extent i agree...i haf no comments

to think tml's the last sch training i'm ever gonna haf in my life...feels totally diff. frm sec4...difference is...in sec4...it ended a happy but tearful affair...but this time...more of a sad kind of tearful affair.

anyway after our so called "training" today...went town with Fong and Joel...got dragged by Mich to say hi to the whole SC squash team at swensons...then at 10 plus Fong and i juz strolled down to cine to waste time while waiting for my dad...and somehow we saw Iris and Zhen...so we juz sat in the food court talking till 11...

still confused and all..but i guess He has a plan for us...

sayless...

2005-04-27T23:06:00.000+08:00

realli wanna thank those of u who came down to support AC today...i'm sorri i let all of u down...thx to Gerald esp. for his lil surprise...ok mayb it was meant to be big...but yea....to Auntie Kar Foon Paul and Ian too...

we trusted in God...He gave us the lineup we were all hoping for...mayb it wasn't the best...but one of the best we could get already...our top 3 meeting their bottom 3...but somehow i guess it wasn't meant to be...

God gave Shums this verse which contained " i will give u Gold instead of Bronze"...though we din expect much frm it concerning today's match, it left me guessing wad He meant...season's coming to an end...so wad could it be?...yea andi guess Tim Chan juz enlightened me...Gold probably meant in terms of frenship...anyways...thx Tim...for cheering me up today...to think i was the one doing the cheering up yest...haha

i guess God's will is not always wad u wan or expect it to be...but sth much more, much greater in the future...season's coming to and end nx week...another chapter of squash closed...for gd? i'm not sure. i dun wan it to end...mayb my passion for the game isn't tt strong anymore, but it has realli become a part of my life these few yrs...

ME

In Turmoil

hall...

School...has started...

sth. meaningful...for some unknown ppl.

sth. meaningful...for some unknown ppl.

Long long time.e..

rise above the storm

Funn!

1 Thessalonians 5:28

Future Glory - Romans 8:18

expectation

PICS!

-

HK!

back...

-

forgot...

i miss sch.

i think i'm really in a dream

dreams...

squash...n squash...n MORE squash...

bored. confused.

photos!

tired!!!

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my life kinda sucks now.

...

sian sian

zonked out.

boo the stupid pox.

a day at work...

dead.

job job job...

another yr gone...

God is GooooooD!

tmr...

pictures!

a gift

Senior's Night

the lil spices in life

boredem

finally...

suden inspiration

5 more...

HORRIBLE

13 days...

18 days to freedom

11 more days...

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Baccalaureate

over...

no looking back...

-_-

results..are back

Slack...

tired!!!

OVER!!!

exhausted..

running madness...

relief or stress man...

roar.

...

problems arent there for nth...

soon soon...

*cough cough*

roar...

*sniff*

hmmm...

rarr...

zzz

sigh sigh sigh

rarr...

dying...rarr...

time flies...

sch...prelims...As

sigh...

why m i always so bored...

blessings

Shriek Shriek Shriek...

cough cough

sniff